The
Domination of Mister Mike
By Karen Singer
Chapter
38 – Part 1 of 2
Ever since Joanna
and Ashley had come into my life, I had been subjected to some of the most
intense humiliation I could imagine.
Now, riding in the car, I could feel that humiliation perhaps more
intensely than ever before. How visible
was I to other drivers? How visible was
I to anyone on the street? Could they
see the pacifier stuck in my mouth?
Could they see the bows in my hair?
How about the tiny baby dress I was wearing? At least they couldn’t see the embarrassing
shoes on my feet, or the diaper I had on, or even my pink nail polish. That is, unless whatever vehicle happened to
be in the lane next to us was taller than Joanna’s car. And it sure seemed to me like most of them
were.
I was still
holding Ashley’s hand, and over and over again I felt her squeeze my
hand…hard. I had no doubt that this
wasn’t easy for her either. But her
mother was determined. She was giving us
no choice at all. Where was she taking
us? No place good, that much I was
certain of. Since I was sitting pretty
much in the middle of the car, I saw Joanna in the rear view mirror constantly
glancing at us in the back seat. More
than once I noticed her giggle a little bit.
Yeah, no doubt about it, her brain had slipped a major cog
somewhere. She was growing more demented
by the day.
We pulled off of
the road into a parking lot and headed for…uh-oh. I looked over at Ashley. I saw her eyes go wide staring at the baby
store in front of us. She looked over at
me, and her eyes told me pretty much everything.
Like it or not, which I didn’t…which we didn’t…Joanna parked the car in front of that baby store. It appeared to be a big baby store…like
me. I mean the place appeared to be
large. I sooo did not want to get out of
the car. And once Joanna had opened the
back door for us, and by the way Ashley was just sitting there, I had no doubt
that she didn’t want to get out of the car either.
“Ash!” Joanna
warned. “Do the back of your legs need
warming up again? Michelle’s too?”
Huh? Michelle?
And yes, my legs were cold, but I didn’t want the kind of warming she
was insinuating. Ashley reluctantly
started working her way out of the car though, and if Ashley went, I had no
choice but to follow. Funny how being
tied together can cause that kind of situation.
After the warmth of the car, let’s just say that those little baby
dresses we were wearing weren’t the best thing to keep us warm. Despite having both a reason for warmth, and
a reason of total fear to make me want to get back into the car again, Joanna
quickly closed the door and locked the car, cutting off all escape – for both
of us.
“Hold hands…oh,
you already are. Well keep holding hands
children. Let’s go.”
Hooray! We had been promoted to children again. Not that it made any difference.
Joanna led us
straight to the door leading into that “large” baby store. She held it open, and like it or not, Ashley
and I wormed our way through it into the warmth inside. We took three steps through the door and
stopped, even though my eyes were searching for someplace we could hide. Yeah, no doubt about it, every eye in the
store was on us. Did the makeup on my
face hide how much I was blushing? I
seriously doubted it.
“Let’s go
babies. Stay with me,” Joanna told us as
she led the way.
What did she
think, that we’d just wander around there on our own? Trust me, we followed.
One of the more
amazing things I’ve ever noticed in my life, other than the way Ashley and I
were currently dressed, is the way a person can talk to someone, hold an entire
conversation with that person, yet never once look at them. Amazing!
And that’s exactly what took place when the saleswoman walked over to
Joanna and asked if she could help with anything. She talked to Joanna, but it was more like
she was talking to Ashley and me, because she never once looked away from
either Ashely or me. And if she was
talking to us, how the heck did she expect us to answer with those darn big
pacifiers tied into our mouths. And
trust me, I know she could see the ribbons keeping them in place. The amazed and disturbed look on her face
never once changed!
“Oh, I have a
few things I need to pick up here,” Joanna told her, but I think I’d just like
to look around while I’m at it and see if there’s anything else I may need.”
“Let me know if
I can help,” the saleswoman replied, still looking at only Ashley and me. She backed off, but certainly not far, which
turned out to be necessary as Joanna practically pounced on a rack of baby dresses
and pulled one out.
“Oh, look how
adorable this is!” Joanna exclaimed to the saleswoman. “Why is it that babies can’t remain this
little forever?”
I know the
saleswoman tried to come up with an answer for that while she continued to stare
at Ash and me, and I know she failed.
There was no
doubt about it, Joanna was taking her sweet time. That saleswoman continued to stay right with
us, but she wasn’t the only other person in the store. There were several saleswomen, and several…mothers
– real mothers, in the store as well.
All of whom pretty much watched us unbelievingly. I know it was unbelievingly, because I didn’t
believe it myself.
I know I grunted
a bit too loudly once, but really, I couldn’t help it. I was so nervous that I wasn’t paying
attention to…some other things. And of
course, that was when Ashley surprised me by peeing – into my diaper of
course. And of course, I grunted in
surprise. Well how the heck was I
supposed to know when she was going to do it?
“Michelle?”
Joanna asked. “Is something wrong baby?”
I rather
emphatically shook my head no. But
Joanna continued to stare at me.
“Michelle! Did you wet your
diaper again?”
Okay, how the
heck was I supposed to answer that? I
shook my head no, and pointed at Ashley.
“Michelle, I
heard you when you did it, not Ashley.
Now is your diaper wet again or not?”
Hey! Not fair.
She knew it was wet long before we left the house! But what else could I answer except to nod
that it was.
Joanna shook her
head. “You’ll just have to wait a little
while to be changed. Maybe before we get
out of here. I want to pick up a few things
first.”
I felt Ashley
elbow me. I turned to look at her and
she was all but laughing at me. She
would!
“Now there’s
something I need!” Joanna declared. She
headed directly to a long display of diaper bags. “I think I need something…big,” she said more
to herself than anyone else. She turned
to that hovering saleswoman and loudly whispered. “I need it big because I’ve got two babies to
take care of.” Then she nodded at Ash
and me, as if the woman hadn’t already figure that out.
“Well,” the
saleswoman said, still looking at us, “they’re not exactly twins.”
“No,” Joanna
agreed. “But close enough.”
“Um…yes. I can see that,” the woman replied.
Why did I
suddenly feel so much smaller than I had when I walked in? And why did I feel that certain troubling
feeling inside my gut that I just knew could lead to more trouble in my diaper
again? Hadn’t whatever Joanna had given
us earlier cleaned me out enough? But
Joanna had made me…us…eat an entire bowl of that stuff. No doubt, it was still working on me. Trouble – with a capital ‘T’ – that would
most likely wind up in my big ‘D.’
Joanna picked out
the largest baby girl themed diaper bag that she could before continuing to
another aisle. Diapers, baby clothes,
everything under the sun to take care of a baby – a real baby. Joanna looked at everything, and I began
desperately fighting what I was afraid was going to become more
inevitable. Besides the diaper bag,
Joanna picked out a cute plastic diaper pail and a bunch of special plastic bag
liners to go into it. She also picked
out a diaper changing pad and matching pacifier holders in a bright pink
pattern. Without even buying them yet,
she immediately clipped one to Ashley’s dress before connecting it to her
pacifier, then she did the same to me.
Always matching. But what I
wanted to know was, why she needed the clip in the first place? Those oversized pacifiers were tied into our
mouths like gags. We weren’t about to
lose them, no matter how much we wanted to.
Just before she
paid for everything, Joanna suddenly turned and said, “Michelle, come
here.” Which meant that both me and
Ashley had to go. Right there in the
store, Joanna quickly bent down and yanked that big diaper cover panty right
down to my knees. Talk about being
horrified! I nearly messed my diaper
right then and there! She thoroughly
checked the state of that big diaper I was wearing right in front of everyone!
“I think you can
go a little while more before I change you,” Joanna said. Then she pulled that big panty back into
place. I was actually glad to have it
pulled up over my diaper again, although for the life of me I didn’t know
why. What difference did it make? Everyone could just look at me and tell I had
a big diaper on under it. But I was
still fighting to keep from making that big diaper even worse. What would Joanna have done if she had
checked it and found that I had messed in it again? I didn’t even want to contemplate that
problem.
But just like she
had done with me, she suddenly attacked Ashley and pulled her diaper cover
down. “Hmm!” Joanna hummed all too
loudly. “You’re both wet! Well, you can both wait to be changed.” She pulled Ashley’s diaper cover back
up. Ash and I looked at each other in
shock over what she had just done – right there in the store!
And then Joanna
pointed her finger at a spot on the carpeted floor not far from the cash
register. “Sit! I’ll be right back.” She watched as Ashley and I sat down right
there on the floor of the store. She
turned to the Saleswoman. “I’ll just be
a moment. I need to get some things from
the car.” Not waiting for an answer or
permission, Joanna hurried straight out of the store.
What if she left
us there? What would we do? I watched as all the saleswomen and several
of the other customers just stared after her…and then at us. Once again I felt smaller than the supposed
age Joanna was treating me like. To be
honest, I felt more like a lowly little worm.
Fortunately,
Joanna came hurrying back into the store.
“I’m so sorry,” she said to the saleswoman. Have they been behaving?”
Yes, the
saleswoman’s jaw was open, but not for the purpose of talking. She was simply too…surprised.
Joanna knelt down
next to us and opened that big bag she had brought with her. From it, she took two baby bottles. She untied Ashley’s big pacifier, letting it
hang down from the ribbon that now connected it to her dress, and she all but
shoved that bottle into Ashley’s mouth.
A minute later I was sitting there on the floor of the baby store as
well, dressed like a baby, and drinking from my bottle. Baby formula again. Ugh!
But drink it I did. I had no
doubt that Joanna wasn’t going to let us out of there until we finished all of
it.
While we sat
there drinking together, Joanna took the time to pay for everything. She also took the time to load up the new
diaper bag with plenty of those big diapers she had brought from home, as well
as everything she could possibly need to change and take care of us. Since she still had time, she carried the
diaper pail out to the car before coming back in the store to shop, while she
waited for us to finish our bottles.
As soon as Ashley
and I were both done, she took our bottles and put those darn pacifiers back in
our mouths. “Do I need to tie them in
again?” she asked Ashely, staring her straight in the eyes as if daring her to
say the wrong thing. Ashley shook her
head no. Whew! We were still stuck sucking on those things,
but at least they weren’t tied into our mouths…for now.
I was so glad to
get out of that store. Talk about
embarrassing! All I could think about
after that was how ready I was get home.
Home, away from the public eye.
Home, where I could be overly embarrassed – in private! Home, where if I suddenly messed in my diaper
again like I was afraid I would, I wouldn’t care as much.
Except, we didn’t
go home. Not when Joanna had other
things on her mind.
I watched from
the middle of the back seat as Joanna drove, wondering…and fearing…where she
was going. And then I knew. Oh no!
Oh no! Oh…nooo! I felt Ashley squeeze my hand extra hard, and
she kept squeezing it. I didn’t squeeze
back. I was too petrified.
Yes, no surprise,
Joanna pulled into the big vast parking lot of the mall. After a little driving around, she pulled
into the closest parking space she could find to one of the major department
stores and turned the engine off. The
engine went off, but my worrisome gut didn’t.
And trust me, just then I wanted my gut to turn itself off, because I
just knew that something worse than pee was soon going to wind up in the back
of my diaper. Joanna opened the back
door for us to get out. And since Ashley
was getting out of the car, I had no choice in the matter. The car door closed…and locked behind
me. I was now dressed in the most
humiliating manner possible, in one of the busiest places possible, with no
place to retreat to. And I was very worried
about that embarrassment becoming even more profound for me.
“Are you holding
hands children? Very good,” Joanna
crooned. She grabbed Ashley’s other hand
and led us toward the mall. It wasn’t
that far, but it wasn’t that close either.
How bad was it going to be? How
embarrassing was it going to be once even more people could see us than the
ones who were outside and whose heads were already turning?
But all that was
only secondarily on my mind. The biggest
worry on my mind was that the walking was doing something…not good…to my
system. I tried hard! I clamped down hard. I fought it with everything I had. But it was a losing battle. The act of doing all that walking was simply
making things more impossible. And not
only was I worried about making a stinky mess in my diaper, I suddenly realized
I had to pee again – and that was growing worse too.
Joanna opened and
held the door for us to go through.
There was another set of doors still in front of us. We went through the first door. Joanna came around and held the second door
and we went through that one as well…and something started going through my
back end into my diaper. NO! I clamped down harder, but we were walking
again…somewhere. Ashley and I had little
choice but to follow Joanna, holding hands, sucking on our big pacifiers,
“enjoying” being dressed like total babies out in public, and I kept fighting
my body that was trying to make things worse in my diaper…now with slowly
losing results.
I could feel the
sticky mess back there as we walked thought the ladies department. I did everything possible to not put any look
of distress on my face. Things were
humiliating enough already. And then I
suddenly felt my diaper filling with warm pee.
Ashley! Why now? She looked at me and grinned behind that big
pacifier. But I already had to pee. I was fighting it along with fighting putting
even more of a mess in my diaper.
Suddenly having my diaper filled with warm pee somehow made me lose it. And I mean really lose it. Everything!
Her warm pee had triggered it, and I had little choice but to let go and
pee…which fortunately went into her diaper.
Take that Ashley! But my bigger
problem was that when that flood gate opened, so did the one I had been fighting
so hard and so long to keep closed at my back end. Yes, the rest of what had been up inside me
and was trying to get out, came out. And
trust me, I did everything possible to NOT let anyone know what I had just
done. Which didn’t last that long.
Less than a
minute later, I noticed Ashley looking at me with a strange look on her
face. I saw her glance down at my
diapered backside. I tried to ignore
her. And then I heard her laughing. Just…great!
I saw Joanna turn to look at Ashley questioningly. I kept my face as straight as possible, and
Joanna returned to her walking and browsing.
I had figured
that Joanna would head for the baby department.
But no. Wrong! Instead we wound up looking at bedding. Sheets and blankets. Ash and I stood by while she started looking,
and right from the start I realized she was looking for the most juvenile and
girlish patterns she could find. Except
that it wasn’t long before she suddenly turned her head to look at us with the
strangest look on her face. And then I
saw her sniff the air. Uh-oh!
“Did one of you
two…” she started.
But before she
could finish, Ashley pointed right at me.
Trust me, I was already blushing.
“Michelle! Did you make a stinky in your diaper?”
A stinky? I didn’t bother nodding or making any other
reply. I know my blushing face said it
all.
“Ugh! What am I going to do with you two?”
Hey, don’t blame
me! I’m not the one who spiked that
cereal she had made us eat that morning.
And then she said something not nice.
“You’ll just
have to wait a few minutes before I change you.
I’ve just started shopping here.”
Oooookay. I didn’t want to be changed in the store
anyway. Trust me! But I did want to go home to get changed. You can trust me about that too!
I had no idea in
the world that some department stores carried that many varieties of
sheets. And most of them in all sizes,
including the size for the new mattress I had gotten. I had no idea how long we stood there…with me
stinking to high heaven…while Joanna shopped.
But I do know that after some time, Ashley suddenly bent over like she
had a cramp.
“Ashley
dear. Are you okay?” Joanna quickly
asked, her voice full of concern.
“Mmmmm!” Ashley
grunted angrily with that dumb pacifier in her mouth.
“Now dear, don’t
speak to me that way. You’ll wind up in
trouble!”
“Mmm!” she
grunted softly, but still angrily. So
what was up with her?
Joanna finally
made her selection. She handed a package
of sheets to me to carry and then turned…but not in a good direction. It seemed she wasn’t finished shopping in
that section yet. As Ashley and I
followed her to another aisle, she started looking at blankets. I didn’t need any new blankets. I had blankets. But evidently, mine weren’t girly enough for
Joanna. I figured that one out pretty
quickly when I realized what kind of blankets Joanna kept pulling out to look
at.
“Mm!” Ashley
grunted softly again. I turned to look
at her, wondering what her problem was.
The look on her face was total distress.
And then I realized – I wasn’t the only one worried about a stinky kind
of problem. “Mmmm!” She was fighting it, and I could tell by the
distress on her face that most likely she was losing it…like I had.
Joanna finally
made her selection on a new blanket.
“Here dear,” she said to Ashley.
“Will you carry this for me please?”
Ashley took the
blanket and held it in her arms. We
started to follow Joanna away from that bedding section, but I was suddenly
brought up short by the tether that linked Ash and I together. I turned to look, and she was halfway bent
over. “Mmmm!” she grunted
distressfully. She shook her head. She screwed her face up into a desperate
look. She did everything possible that
she could, but it was still only moments before I saw the tears start to fall
from her eyes.
“Ashley dear,”
Joanna’s face said. “Are you as bad as
little Michelle? Did you mess your
diaper too?”
Ashley didn’t
nod. She didn’t grunt. She didn’t answer. She turned into me as far as she could. The blanket in her arms and the sheets in my
arms preventing us from getting too close.
She didn’t look at her mother.
She was crying softly.
All of a sudden
Joanna was there. Instead of offering
comfort, she grabbed Ashley’s hand and pulled.
“Come along children,” she said.
“I guess there’s no help for it.
Obviously you’re both a mess.
Let’s get you two cleaned up before any other mothers here start
protesting.”
Other
mothers? Who the heck was she talking
about? And more importantly, what
exactly did she mean when she said she’d get us cleaned up? And believe me, I could only think of one
possibility.