Training with Wolfie
By Karen Singer
Chapter 25
Sunday morning, Rosa woke to find
that Wolf wasn’t in his usual spot next to her bed. When she got out of bed to look further, she
discovered that he wasn’t in the room at all.
It took only a little bit of searching to find him. He was in the guest bedroom with Brian, only
he was up on the bed – where he didn’t belong!
Brian’s arm was over top of him.
The two of them were sleeping together.
This time, Rosa let Wolf be.
She headed for the bathroom, then
the kitchen. She had no doubt that the
sound and smell of her making breakfast would bring Wolf out of the room pretty
quickly. She cooked sausage. Enough for three. Before she put the eggs on, she went back to
the guest bedroom. Brian was now awake
and looking at her. Wolf was still
laying next to him. Brian’s hand was
running unconsciously through Wolf’s fur.
“Good morning my angel,” she said
brightly. Brian only looked back at her
with questioning eyes. She was very glad
he didn’t try to talk. “Wolf. Down!” she said as she walked over to the
bed. Wolf stayed put. She pulled the covers back for Brain, then
she picked up the rolled up piece of newspaper.
“Remember what I said,” she reminded Brian sternly. “Wolf!
I said down. Now!” The big dog finally crawled off the bed. Once down, he stretched.
Rosa set the newspaper down for a
moment. Let’s sit up,” she said to
Brian.
Brian did his best to get his legs
over the edge of the bed. It was easier
to move today than it had been last night.
He was soon sitting on the side of the bed again. “Now let’s see if we can get you to your
feet.” Rosa reached out with both hands
and grabbed his. It took a try or two,
but Brian was finally standing. With
Rosa’s help, they slowly made their way into the bathroom.
“Remember what I said last night,”
Rosa said. “In this house, we always
sit.”
Brian knew he could nod as a reply
now. He nodded as Rosa helped him to the
toilet. It was still difficult for him
to grab things, but he managed to pull up the hem of the nightgown he was
wearing and sit on the toilet. After
being naked for so long and going out in the backyard like a dog, having Rosa
stand there and watch him pee made no impression on him at all.
“Very good,” Rosa said. She pulled him to his feet again and led him
over to the sink where she turned the water on for him and made sure it was
warm before he washed his hands. Like
last night, the warm water seemed to help him.
He still couldn’t move his fingers very well, but they were slowly
getting better.
With Rosa’s arm holding him around
the waist, they slowly made their way into the kitchen where she sat him down
in one of the chairs. “I’ll have
breakfast ready for you very soon,” she said.
She turned to Wolf. “Come on big
boy. Let’s get you out into the yard for
a few minutes.” Wolf went willingly,
despite the smell of sausage in the kitchen.
Sausage, and eggs, and toast. And coffee!
Brian had a lot of trouble picking up the fork. He had trouble using the fork. But ne managed. He had to use both hands to hold the cup
steady enough to drink from it without spilling it. And the entire time he ate, Wolf laid on the
floor right next to him.
After breakfast, Rosa let Brian sit
right where he was while she cleaned up the kitchen. Brian watched her as he sat petting Wolf’s
big head in his lap. When Rosa was done,
she finally turned to him. “Okay, let’s
see if we can get you on your feet again.
It was easier this time. Once on
his feet, she grabbed him around the waist again, and walked with him around
the house. After a minute, she began
holding onto him less. Then barely at
all. Soon, he was walking by himself.
She kept him walking for a few
minutes by himself before she had him go back into the bathroom. This time, she turned the shower water
on. While she was waiting for the water
to warm up, she removed his nightgown, but this time, she removed her nightgown
and panties as well so that they were both totally naked. She helped him into the shower, and she got
in with him. She scrubbed his whole body
clean, then she took her shampoo and conditioner and went after his messy
hair. After the shower, she dried him
off, then put the same nightgown back on him.
She left him there, sitting on the
closed toilet seat while she went to her bedroom to get dressed. When she came back, she began brushing and
combing his hair. This time she combed
it all straight back away from his face.
Then she had him walk around on his own for a while more.
All morning she kept him moving, or
sitting and trying to move his fingers better.
It was slow going, but little by little, his muscles loosened up and the
movement came back, but through it all, she never allowed him to speak…until
late in the morning, shortly before lunch.
She sat him down at the kitchen table.
She sat across from him…and she set the rolled up newspaper down right
in front of her where he could see it.
“We’re going to practice speaking
now,” she told him, “but you’re only allowed to say what words I say you
can. Nothing else. And you’re going to say the words the way I
want you to say them. Nod your head if
you understand.”
Brian nodded.
“Good,” Rosa replied. “Now say…Wolf.”
“Uull,” Brian tried.
Rosa smiled. “Wolfie.”
“Ulie.”
“Try it again, Wolf.”
It took a try or two before Brian’s
tongue could get the hang of things again, but he was soon speaking Wolf’s name
clearly. And then Rosa changed things in
a way that Brian never anticipated
“Now the hard part,” Rosa told
him. “Say Wolf again, but raise the
pitch of your voice so that it’s higher.”
That really surprised Brian, but
all it took was for Rosa to glance down at the rolled up newspaper and he did
his best.
“Better, but a little higher than
that.”
Brian tried again.
“Now speak it like that, but try to
say it softer.”
Rosa worked with Brian for half an
hour before she finally stopped. “Only
dog sounds now,” she told him. “No more
talking.” But it was with a smile on her
face that she got up to make lunch for them all.
After lunch, Rosa trimmed his
fingernails, enabling him to move his fingers better, but while she trimmed
them, she didn’t trim them that much, she still left them very long. But at least they were smooth now and looked
better. And then she started in on more
lessons. Grab it this way. Try to walk more like this. Move your hands like that. It was all little things. Simple things. But things she was now emphasizing everything
with her piece of newspaper. To his
horror, Brian got hit a number of times with her newspaper as she tried to mold
him into what she wanted.
By the end of the day, Brian was
more confused than ever. And the next
day, Rosa started all over again. “I
didn’t like the way you moved your hands.” Was punctuated with a swat from her
paper. “I didn’t like the way you moved
your body,” brought another swat. And
the three times they sat down to practice talking brought even more swats with
her paper. But by the end of the day,
Brian was finally allowed to speak like a human again, as long as he didn’t ask
questions, and as long as he spoke exactly the way she demanded.
The next day, Rosa woke up to find
Wolf again in Brian’s bed. She shook her
head. She had a feeling that like it or
not, Wolf was forever going to stay close to him. She wasn’t sure how she felt about that, but
she also knew that trying to fight it might not be the best thing. She had just torn a very good friendship
apart, and she had no doubt that the two of them were still trying to hold onto
whatever they could of it.
“Come on, my angel,” she said to
Brian. “Let’s get you up and
moving. She got Brian out of bed, and
her lessons with the newspaper began all over again.
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One week. One entire week. Seven full days. Rosa didn’t let Brian ask what was going on,
but Brian was figuring things out. He
could move his hands perfectly well again.
He could walk perfectly well again, but he wasn’t allowed to move his
hands, or walk, or even sit down like he used to. And talking…that was the most difficult
part. But Brian had figured out what
Rosa was trying to do with him. Just not
the why or anything else. And for those
entire seven days, the only thing he was allowed to wear was one of Rosa’s
nightgowns.
On the eighth day, Rosa sat him
down at the kitchen table. She set the
newspaper down in front of her as she usually did. Brian expected more speaking lessons, but
that’s not what happened at all. This
time, Rosa got serious again, but it was a different kind of serious.
“Don’t talk!” she said. Just listen.
Understand?”
Brian nodded.
Rosa looked at him for a moment,
then took a deep breath. Finally, she
began. “It’s time,” she said, “for you
to start making some decisions about what to do with the rest of your life.” She watched his face and saw the surprised
reaction. “I’m going to offer you a
choice now,” she told him. “I’ll give
you all day today, and all day tomorrow to think about it, but by bedtime
tomorrow night, I’ll want an answer. And
that’s the decision we both will stick to from now on. Is that clear?”
Brian nodded hesitantly.
“If you like, you can go back to
your old life. You can go today. This morning if you want. No strings attached. The house next door is vacant again, and it’s
been cleaned. I’ll have what few things
you owned taken from storage and returned to you immediately. You can stay there free of charge for the
next six months. What’s more, until you
get a job, I’ll give you a little bit of money to live on as well – until you
get yourself a job. After that, you’ll
be on your own, and after that six months, I’ll either expect you to start
paying your rent, or move somewhere else.”
She watched his face. She could see he was relieved about some of
what she had told him. She
continued. “Brian, you can do whatever
you want. Get any job you want, but I
highly recommend that you don’t go back to teaching school. You weren’t cut out for it. You simply don’t have the backbone to stand
up to anyone. And Brian, I think we’ve
pretty much proved that point over the last few months.” She saw the look on his face. She couldn’t tell what he was feeling. It was either puzzlement, or horror.
“Before any of this started, all
you did was complain about how those kids walked all over you. And Brian, we both know now that it wasn’t
their parent’s fault at all, it was you, and your total lack of any ability to
stand up for yourself.” She could see
the feeling of hurt on his face. So be
it.
“Remember, you can leave and go
back to your old life, in any way or form that you want, either after tomorrow
night, or even right now if you want.
But Brian, I have another option for you to listen to and consider. You can either go back to your old life. Back to being Brian the spineless wimp. Or…you can stay here and live permanently
with me. You’ll help me clean the
house. You’ll help me with my rental
properties. You’ll help me do many
things. But more importantly, what I
really want, is simply, a companion. If
you stay with me, you’ll become the companion that I want – in the way I
want. And I think that over the last
week you’ve already figured out a lot of what that will mean. You won’t be Brian anymore. Instead, you’ll become…Angel. Together, we’ll shed that male exterior of
yours that never worked for you at all, and together, we’ll create someone
new. Someone with confidence. And I hope and believe, someone who will
truly be happy. That’s what I believe
anyway. That will be my wish, for me to
be happy, but also, for you to be happy.”
She saw the wheels turning in his
head, but she also saw the indecision.
“Think about it Brian. You have
until tomorrow night before you go to bed.”
She took the newspaper in front of her and unrolled it. And then she ripped the paper in half. “Go enjoy yourself now. Go play with Wolfie if you want. But think about what I said. The choice…is yours.”
Still wearing nothing but one of her nightgowns, Brian headed out to the
porch swing. Wolfie came right up to him
and he sat there petting Wolf’s big head and stroking his warm thick fur. What should he do? Go back to his old life? Go back to teaching school? He remembered the kids and how they were with
him. Impossible! He shuddered.
But she would let him live in his old house for free for the next six
months. And she would give him money to
live on. He could find a new job. A different job for sure. She was right, he couldn’t teach school
anymore. He just…couldn’t! Just thinking about it made him sick.
Or…he could live here
as…Angel? And he was pretty sure that
living here as Angel, meant that she somehow wanted him to live…as a
woman? How the heck? But she had been forcing him to talk
differently – more like a woman. And
move differently – more like a woman. He
had no doubt she would continue to force him to do many things differently if
he decided to do that.
So what should he do? Freedom, or….
Would he be free in any way if he went with what she wanted? Her companion? She wanted a friend around?
All day long he thought about
it. Freedom, or…. Something else. Shortly before dinner, he decided he had to
take a chance and try to ask. She might
beat him raw for asking, but he felt he had to try.
Rosa was in the kitchen making
dinner. He walked in and stopped
watching her. Trying hard to use the
voice she had been forcing him to use, he said, “Rosa, can I please ask
something.”
Rosa was surprised. She turned around and smiled. “Of course.
I was hoping you might.”
“If I stay here with you, as
Angel. What kind of freedom would I
have?”
That’s a very good question,” Rosa
replied. “Let’s sit down.” She turned the stove off and sat at the table
with him. “You would of course have more
freedom to do whatever you like…but that freedom would come a little bit over
time. You’d get as much freedom as I
feel you’re ready for. I won’t let you
go out and do anything alone, until I feel you’re confident enough. Ready enough.
But once you reach that point, you’ll still live here with me, but
you’ll have your own entire life as well.
It will simply be as Angel instead of Brian.”
Brian nodded. “You want me to become a woman,” he said.
“Yes. I do.
A woman, and my companion. My
helper. Someone to keep me company. Someone I can talk to. Someone who will talk to me. Someone…I can do things with. And Brian make no mistake, you will also
become a lover for me as well.”
Brian nodded. “Thank you,” he replied. He got up and went outside to think things
through again. It was a lot to think
about. And now that included…being her
lover. But would he get love in
return?
He went back into the kitchen. Rosa was just setting the table. He stopped behind the chair where he usually
sat. “You said you want me to be your
lover, but would I get love in return?”
Rosa went to him and hugged
him. Her voice was a whisper. “More than you think. Much more than you think. And Brian, in bed, I’ve had a lot of
experience. Both with men and
women. But to be honest, if you’re
talking about sex, I’m not sure how much I’ll use you as a man. That part may have to work itself out over
time. But I promise, I won’t let you go
unfulfilled. I want your new life, to be
as fulfilling, in all ways, as possible.
I just see a different vision for you of your life than you’ve ever
considered before.”
Brian nodded. It was even more to think about.
“Now sit down, and let’s eat.”
Brian fed Wolf his dinner that
night. And then later, he sat on his bed
while Wolf sat in front of him. He
stroked Wolf’s thick fur over and over again.
“What should I do Wolfie?” he asked quietly.
Wolf whined and laid his big head
in Brian’s lap. Brian pet his head like
that, staring at his best friend for a few moments. Then he got off the bed and knelt down on the
floor where he hugged the big dog.
He got to his feet and went out to
find Rosa. “Rosa?” he said trying hard
with the voice she wanted him to use.
“Yes?”
“I think I like the name Angel.”
Rose jumped up, went to him, and
hugged him.
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Connie rang the doorbell. It had been a month now since she had been to
see Rosa. They had talked a few times on
the phone, but only a few. From inside the house, she heard Wolf’s deep loud
bark. She wasn’t afraid of Wolf
anymore. In fact, she actually liked the
big dog. But the strange thing was
Bobo. Every time she mentioned Bobo to
Rosa, she had changed the subject and refused to talk about him. She could only surmise that Bobo, was now
back to being Brian again, and was long gone.
And she couldn’t blame him one bit!
The door opened and Connie was
suddenly quite surprised. Rosa hadn’t
opened the door, but another woman had.
Except closer examination told her that it wasn’t just another woman,
but Brian – dressed as a woman. She
stood there wide-eyed, taking him in. He
was wearing a rather nice dress. He had
small heels on his feet. He was wearing
makeup. And the biggest change of all,
his hair had been styled and bleached to a light blonde.
“Hi Connie,” Angel said brightly as
she held the door open for her.
Connie came in, but her eyes never
once left the person in front of her.
“Brian?” she finally asked.
Angel smiled, but it was Rosa who
came up and answered. “It’s not Brian
anymore, and it won’t ever be Brian again.
Connie, I’d like you to meet my new companion. Connie, this is Angel.”
“Angel?” Connie asked, still
staring in disbelief. She finally turned
her head to look at Rosa. “Companion?”
Rosa smiled. “Yes, from now on, Angel will be living with
me, and helping me with everything I need.”
Connie stared back at Angel. “Angel?” she said, still trying to come to
grips with it.
Angel smiled. “Believe it or not, I can’t remember ever
being this happy,” she told Connie. “For
the first time in my life, I feel like I’m wanted. And needed.
And…loved.”
Connie looked back and forth
between the two of them, then she finally smiled at Angel. She went to her, and hugged her. “Hi Angel,” she whispered. “I can’t tell you how happy I am for you.”
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It was a beautiful spring day. Rosa and Angel had been very busy getting
another of her new rental properties ready for someone to move into. The house next door had been rented to a
salesman who was away quite often. Rosa
and Angel sat on the porch swing together enjoying a glass of iced tea. Wolf was out in the back of the yard, doing
his business back there.
Rosa put her hand on Angel’s
arm. “Angel,” she said. “You’ve been the best thing in my life in
many years. Is there anything you’d
like? Anything at all I can do for you?”
Angel watched Wolf way out in the
yard. She turned her head to Rosa. “Can I do something?”
“What?”
Angel told her.
Rosa considered it. “Okay.
But just this once, and only for today.”
Half an hour later, Rosa opened the
back door and let Angel out. Angel saw
Wolfie rolling around on the grass. She
barked. Wolf heard it and reacted
instantly, picking his head up to see. A
moment later, he ran up the steps and was licking Angel’s face. Angel nuzzled him back and barked
playfully. Together the two dogs ran
down the steps and out into the yard, where they played like the two best
friends they still were.
Rosa sat and watched the two of
them. Bobo was back again, but only for
the day. But Rosa had no doubt that she
would let Angel play this way with Wolf again.
She just wouldn’t let her play that way too much. She needed Angel now. She was forever grateful to have Angel in her
life. And she was sure that Angel felt
pretty much the same way. But once in a
while. Once, every so often, she might
let Angel, and Wolfie, play.
The end.