Mystifying Moods

Does this happen to anyone else? I’m sure it probably does.

I just recently went through a bout that lasted two or three days where I simply wasn’t nearly as interested in “anything” sissy or feminine at all. This happens to me roughly about once a month or so. Please don’t get me wrong. I believe that given the chance during one of these episodes that I would still run as fast as I could to wear something pretty. But overall, it’s like the desire… or perhaps I should say the drive… seems to reverse itself. I actually feel more like a “man” during these times than at any other time.

I’ve heard that there is something called a “male period” but I have no idea if this is in any way related to that. My desires start to dwindle for a day or so, then for the next few days I’m far more interested in masculine things. My attitudes are also far more of what I would call masculine. Then, like it started, the process seems to reverse itself and gradually the desire for more feminine and sissy things returns. Only after one of these periods the desires are far stronger than usual for a few days.

I’ve never tried to document these cycles and wouldn’t know where to start to even try. And I actually have mixed feelings about it all. On the one hand during the cycles, I feel great, but at the same time I recognize that I’m not feeling what is normal for me. And I’m actually very glad when they’re over and the old feelings and desires return.

I once thought that it had something to do with the phases of the moon, but I doubt that that could be true. So it’s more likely that it’s just some part of my normal body cycles – hence the idea of it being part of my male period. But as I said before, I have no idea.

However, right now, I’m in full-blown agony over wanting to play and wear something pretty along with anything else I can do. You have no idea how often I dream of another play adventure!