Now What?

In case you haven’t noticed, the last story is done.  So the questions is, now what?  I honestly don’t know.

 Writing the usual stuff I put in this blog has become difficult, but I’m trying to push past it.  It’s difficult, because back in November, I had cancer surgery.  The surgery lasted a lot longer than they anticipated, but in the end, the surgeon was satisfied that he had gotten all the cancer out of me.  (Hooray!)  It wasn’t until several months later though that I noticed something.  My entire libido was gone.  I had no interest in anything at all that would usually affect me sexually.  And now here’s the strange part, Karen, my alter ego, also seemed to be gone.  Which is strange because Karen was never a sexual thing for me.  Back what seems like a thousand years ago now, when I first began exploring and being Karen (in the closet of course), I learned that Karen wasn’t a sexual thing at all.  I simply felt more relaxed, more right, dressing as Karen.  Oh, and I did it a lot – within the confines of my home of course – with the curtains drawn!  But since the surgery, Karen doesn’t seem to live inside me anymore, and I miss her. 

 Recently though, in the last few months, I see small signs that things in those categories might be returning a little bit.  Once in a while, I get sexually interested again.  More often, I get interested for a little while, then nothing ever becomes of it for a few weeks, then it comes back.  So maybe, things are starting to return.  Some.  Maybe.

 In my quest to find the Karen side of me again, I’ve been going back and reading all of the Karen Singer books I’ve published over the years.  Most of them.  I’m not doing Baby Bobby or the McComber Switch, for now.  The rest of them are the ones that I consider to be my better books – the ones that really belong to what I like to think of as my transgendered lives collection.  I’m already working on another post about these books that includes my opinions and favorites.  It’ll be another week or so before I post that since I’m still reading.

 In the meantime, the question still remains.  What’s next?  I never finished Mercy Me.  I also wrote about two chapters in another story idea I had about a home invasion and the main character is kept in diapers and different forms of bondage all the time.  Do I go back to working on Mercy Me, or do I try and write the new story, or do I write something else.

 Or…do I write nothing at all. 

 I don’t want to close this blog.  At the least, it’s a way for me to let people know about any books I write (see the My Books page).  So if I’m going to keep it, then I might as well do something with it – like write stories.

 So please, tell me, what would you like to see?  Leave me a comment or send me an email (My Books page).  Let me know.  Give me some ideas – a story scenario or other idea, a story title, anything!  Challenge me!  I love to write, and right now, I’m not writing anything at all. 

 Please stay safe and healthy everyone!

Karen