Too Old to be Young - Chapter 11

The vast majority of this chapter is something I wrote a long time ago.  It is a slightly altered and cut-down version of my No Control Mantra that I had written to turn into a hypno-style recording – but never succeeded.  It was also never meant to be something to fully hypnotize someone.  It’s not really that kind of thing.  I categorize it as an anomaly.  Don’t wet yourself!  (Unless you’re wearing a diaper.)

 

Too Old to be Young

By Karen Singer

 

Chapter 11

 

The meeting with the girls went remarkably quickly.  Mostly, it was just to make sure everyone was still on the same page.  There was one small surprise that was brought up that was quickly approved by all the girls, but that was it.  Most of the time they spent just talking with each other about this and that.  An hour later, Jackie was saying goodbye as they all went out the door, looking forward to their bridge night tomorrow.

As Jackie watched Pam and Lisa climbing into Lisa’s golf cart together, her mind went back to what they had discussed.  She had told them everything about what she had discussed with Jim…except for one small thing.  One personal thing for Jim.  That, she would hold in strict confidence…for now.  Except with him.

It was the middle of the afternoon when she walked over to his house.  When she arrived, she found a thick plastic package sitting outside his door.  She picked it up and looked at it, unable to tell what was in it.  After the things they had discussed on Sunday, she was tempted to knock, but he had told her this morning to just barge in on him again – so she did.

Jim was working on another of his old stories when he heard the door opening.  He rushed out of his office to see Jackie coming in.

“Hi Jim,” Jackie greeted him.  “I found this sitting outside.”

Jim took the package and carried it back to his office.  He found his scissors and cut the end off of it.  When he pulled out what was in it, he found several things with childish designs all over them.  “Uh-oh,” he muttered softly as he grabbed the top one and held it open.

“Oh!  How precious!” Jackie said as she looked on.  “Your onesies!  Aren’t they darling?”

Jim didn’t reply.

“Try one on,” she told him.  “No, wait!  I’ll be right back.”  She hurried from his house and back to her house where she grabbed the package that had arrived in the mail earlier that day.  Inside the package she had found a pack of three small locks.  She removed one of them from the package and opened it, then she hurried back to Jim’s house…with the lock, but not the key.

Back at his house, she watched as he removed all his clothes and changed into a fresh diaper.  Then she watched as he pulled the onesie up his body.  These onesies didn’t have a crotch opening to make diaper changes easier.  They had a zipper up the back instead and two fasteners so that they could be locked.  She zipped the back of it up for him, then leaned around and showed him the open lock.

“Where did you get…”

“Shh,” she hushed him as she held him still to keep him from turning around.  A moment later, she clicked the lock closed.  “There,” she said.  “All done.”

Jim reached behind him and felt the lock.  He tried to pull down the zipper, but he couldn’t.  he was…stuck!  He felt his still sore cock give another twinge of excitement.

“Oh, you look adorable in that thing,” Jackie told him as she stood back to view the results.

Jim was sure he didn’t look adorable at all.  He probably looked ridiculous.

“Is it better than my bathing suit?” she asked.

“Much!” he said as he took the time to realize it.  It’s still a little tight in the crotch, but not nearly as tight as your bathing suit, and it’s not killing my shoulders.”

“Good!” she replied.  “I was sure you would find it a lot more comfortable.

“But why do I need it if I don’t have any toilets in the house?  I’m stuck using the diapers anyway.”

“Because…I want you to know that not only can’t you use any toilets anymore, but you can’t even change yourself unless I let you.  Those decisions are no longer yours, they’re mine.”

“Isn’t this one of those things we talked about where you stepped over the bounds?”

“Maybe,” she admitted.  “In fact, yes, probably.  But quite frankly, I don’t care.  And if you don’t like it, then tomorrow is Tuesday, and I’ll just use this to make your life more miserable anyway.”

He shook his head.  “Screwed, one way or another.”

“Pretty much,” she agreed.  “Now follow me.”

“Now what?”

Grab one of the chairs from your table and bring it onto your office.  I’ve got a little project you may find interesting.

“A project?  What?”

“Jim, get me a chair!”

A minute later, she had Jim sit in front of his computer while she sat next to him.

“Find that thing you showed me earlier.  Your no control mantra.

“That?  But…”

“Jim!  Do it!”  She waited while he found the file and opened it.  “Now turn away from the computer and don’t look.  Just close your eyes and sit there.”

“But I wasn’t going to do any of this right now.”

“It’s as good a time as any,” she replied.

“But what if I don’t want this?”

“But the point is that you do want it since it’s another of your little fantasies.  So why not have fun and explore it like we’re doing with everything else?”

“But…”

“Jim!  Relax and enjoy it.  Go with the flow.  We’re already playing with your other fantasies, adding this on top of it may only increase your fun.  It’s one of your fantasies, remember?”

He looked at her skeptically.

“Now turn away and close your eyes.”  It took a moment, but once he was ready, she began reading aloud from the document he had titled, No Control Mantra.  Her voice was soft and slow, almost a whisper as she read:

 

Relax.  Relax.  No control.  No control.  

Relax.  Relax.  No control.  No control.

 

Your dream, your desire, is to have no control at all over your peeing, and no control at all over your pooping.  No control at all.  No control over anything.  No control.  No control.  The only way you can achieve this is to relax all those muscles that control those functions, and keep them as relaxed as possible, all the time.

 

Relax.  Relax.  No control.  No control. 

Relax.  Relax.  No control.  No control.

 

Every time you hear the word relax, you need to try hard to relax all those sphincter muscles that control your peeing and pooping as much as you possibly can.  Continually strive to relax them more and more, even when you don’t think you can possibly relax them anymore, there are always more levels of relaxation for them.  You need to constantly strive to find those new levels of relaxation.  Relax.  Relax.  Let those muscles go and relax them.

Relax.  Relax.  No control.  No control. 

Relax.  Relax.  No control.  No control.

 

Every time you hear the words no control, it will remind you of what your goal is.  This is what you want.  You want no control at all over your peeing and pooping, so relax and be reminded that this is what you’re after.

 

Relax.  Relax.  No control.  No control. 

Relax.  Relax.  No control.  No control.

 

If you should feel like you might need to pee or poop while you’re listening to this, then concentrate on those feelings and enjoy them as much as possible, but still strive to relax even more as you feel them.  Enjoy the feelings of needing to pee and poop, and having it happen right then and there.  This is what you’re after.  This is what you what.  So relax.  Relax.  No control.  No control.

 

When you’re not listening to this, every time you notice yourself tightening up, just think these words in your head and relax those muscles again, taking you back to where you want to be.  Letting everything happen naturally, with no control at all.  No control.  No control.

 

Relax.  Relax.  No control.  No control. 

Relax.  Relax.  No control.  No control.

 

Relax.  Relax.  Close your eyes, and relax.

Your goal, is no control.  No control.  No control.

Relax.  Relax.  Let your body, relax.

What you want, is no control.  No control.  No control.

 

Relax.  Relax.  Let your body, relax.

Relax.  Relax.  No control.  No control.

Relax.  Relax.  Feel your body relax.

No control.  No control.  Relax.  No control.

 

Relax.  Relax.  Just float, and relax.

Feel your body, relax.  No control.  No control.

Relax even more.  Relax.  Relax.

No control.  No control.  Relax.  No control.

 

With each breath you take, relax even more.

Even more relaxed.  Relax.  Relax.

No control.  No control.  Relax.  No control.

No control.  No control.  Relax.  Relax.

 

Each time you breathe in, relax even more.

Each time you breathe out, relax more again.

Relax.  Relax.  No control.  Relax.

Relax.  Relax.  No control.  No control.

 

Breathe in and breathe out.  Relax.  Relax.

Relax more and more.  Relax.  Relax.

No control.  No control.  Relax.  Relax.

You want no control.  Relax.  No control.

 

Feel your groin open.  Relax.  Relax.

Opening wider.  No control.  No control.

Feel yourself open.  Relax.  Relax.

Opening wider. Relax.  Relax.

 

Opening more.  Relax.  Relax.

Opening wider.  Relax. Relax.

You want no control.  Relax.  No control. 

Opening wider.  No control.  No control.

 

No control.  No control.  Relax.  Relax.

You want no control.  Relax.  Relax.

No control.  No control.  Relax.  Relax.

You want no control.  No control.  No control.

 

Opening wider.  Relax.  Relax.

You want no control.  No control.  No control.

You must relax more.  Relax.  No control.

You must open wider.  Relax.  No control.

 

No bladder control.  No control.  No control.

Not any control.  No control.  No control.

Opening wider.  No control.  No control.

Relaxed and wide open.  No control.  No control.

 

You want no control.  No control.  No control.

You cannot control.  No control.  No control.

You can never control.  No control.  No control.

You will not control.  No control.  No control.

 

You want no control.  No control.  No control.

You will not control.  No control.  No control.

You cannot control.  No control.  No control.

You can never control.  No control.  No control.

 

Your muscles are open.  Relax.  No control.

So very wide open.  Relax.  No control.

You cannot control them.  Relax.  Relax.

So very wide open.  Relax.  No control.

 

You cannot control them.  No control.  No control.

You will not control them.  Relax.  No control.

You can't ever close them.  No control.  No control.

You can't even feel them.  No control.  No control.

 

Your muscles are open.  Relax.  No control.

You have no control there.  Relax.  No control.

You want no control there.  No control.  No control.

You will not control them.  No control.  No control.

 

You don't want to feel them.  No control.  No control.

You don't want control there.  No control.  No control.

You want to stay open.  Relax.  No control.

You don't want control there.  Relax.  No control.

 

You have to stay open.  Relax.  Relax.

You have no control there.  Relax.  No control.

You want no control there.  Relax.  Relax.

You cannot control there.  Relax.  No control.

 

You want to pee freely.  No control.  No control.

You want to not feel it.  No control.  No control.

You want to poop freely.  Relax.  No control.

You have no control there.  Relax.  No control.

 

You will not control there.  No control.  No control.

You will go whenever.  No control.  No control.

You love peeing freely.  No control.  No control.

You love no control there.  No control.  No control.

 

You will never know it.  No control. No control.

You won't ever feel it.  No control.  No control.

You won't feel your bladder.  No control.  No control.

You won't feel it filling.  No control.  No control.

 

You won't even realize.  No control.  No control.

When you have to go now.  No control.  No control.

You love peeing freely.  Relax.  Relax.

You love no control now.  Relax.  No control.

 

You will never know it.  No control.  No control.

You'll just go whenever.  No control.  No control.

You won't even worry.  Relax.  Relax.

It will not concern you.  Relax.  No control.

 

It's not your concern now.  Relax.  Relax.

It's just going to happen.  Relax.  No control.

It's all for the best now.  Relax.  Relax.

It's just what you want now.  No control.  No control.

 

You won't ever feel it.  No control.  No control.

The need will not hit you.  Relax.  Relax.

You go without knowing.  No control.  No control.

The need won't exist now.  Relax.  No control.

 

You cannot control it.  No control.  No control.

You won't ever know it.  Relax.  Relax.

You just feel relaxed there.  Relax.  Relax.

You just feel wide open.  Relax.  No control.

 

You have no control there.  No control.  No control.

You just let it happen.  Relax.  Relax.

The feeling’s so good now.  Relax.  Relax.

To just stay wide open.  Relax.  No control.

 

Your body feels good now.  Relax.  Relax.

To pee and poop freely.  No control.  No control.

You love how it feels now.  Relax.  Relax.

To go without knowing.  No control.  No control.

 

Your muscles are open.  Relax.  Relax.

So very wide open.  Relax.  No control.

You want them so open.  Relax.  Relax.

You don’t want to close them.  Relax.  No control.

 

It all feels so normal.  No control.  No control.

To feel so wide open.  Relax.  Relax.

You hate feeling tight there.  No control.  No control.

Relaxed is much better.  Relax.  Relax.

 

You have no control now.  No control.  No control.

You cannot control them.  No control.  No control.

It's just how it should be.  Relax.  Relax.

It's just how it will be.  No control.  No control.

 

You feel yourself floating.  Relax.  Relax.

It feels very good now.  Relax.  No control.

Your body feels good now.  Relax.  Relax.

To have no control now.  Relax.  No control.

 

You feel so relaxed now.  Relax.  Relax.

You have no control now.  No control.  No control.

You're feeling so happy.  Relax.  No control.

Your muscles wide open.  No control.  No control.

 

That's just how they'll stay now.  No control.  No control.

You can't ever close them.  No control.  No control.

You don’t want them closed now.  Relax.  No control.

You will never close them.  No control.  No control.

 

You don't have control now.  No control.  No control.

That's just how it should be.  Relax.  No control.

That's just how you want it.  No control.  No control.

That's just how it will be.  Relax.  No control.

 

You don't have control now.  No control.  No control.

You'll go without knowing.  No control.  No control.

You'll love going freely.  No control.  No control.

You'll love the not knowing.  No control.  No control.

 

Relax.  Relax.  No control.  No control.

Relax.  Relax.  No control.  No control.

Relax.  Relax.  No control.  No control.

Relax.  Relax.  No control.  No control.

 

When she had finished, Jackie sat silently for a few moments.  Finally, she said, “Jim?”

Jim startled.  “Oh.”

“What happened there?” she asked.

“I think it got boring.”

“Are you sure?”

“Pretty sure.  It’s too much repetition.”

“Mm.  Maybe.  But I think the point is still there.  If we’re going to explore this little fantasy, then I guess like the instructions said, whenever you notice those muscles not being completely loose or relaxed, then you need to think about the mantra.  Relax.  Relax.  No control.  No control, and relax yourself as your thinking about it.

“Yeah.  That was the general idea when I wrote it.  I just wrote…too much.”

“Maybe,” she agreed.  “So are you relaxed now?”

“Very!  That much certainly works.  You wouldn’t believe how you can think you’re totally relaxed and then you find yet another level of relaxation beyond that.  It’s…amazing.”

“Did you wet yourself during it?”

“No.  I never felt a thing.”

“Too bad,” she replied.

“Yeah.  I was kind of hoping I would.”

“Maybe next time,” she said as she got up from her seat.  “I’ll leave you now.”

“When are you coming back to let me change?”

She smiled evilly at him.  “Who says I’m coming back?”

“But what if I’m…uh…messy?”

“I think it’s about time you learned to live with it.”

“But I’m not even wearing one of my night diapers!”

“Do you really need one?  They all seem to hold quite a bit.  Maybe I’ll be back to let you change, maybe I won’t.  And that little lock on your new onesie doesn’t give you much of a choice.”

“But…”

She leaned in close to him.  “No control.  No control.”  Don’t forget, tomorrow is Tuesday.  “Relax.  Relax.  No control.  No control.”  With that she laughed and walked out.