If Only!

If only, if only!!! If only this could last and last and last. But it’s looking more and more like I’ll be leaving early tomorrow to pick up my wife. We have no definitive answer yet, but that’s what we’re both planning on right now. One of the things that irks me (a lot) when my wife is away, is that any time I might even suggest, or even if I say nothing about it at all, that I absolutely can’t wait till she gets back, she starts to heavily accuse me of not wanting her back. I guess she just always needs that reassurance. But I know halfway back home again, she’ll already be talking about missing her parents and how much she’s worried about them. She’s been campaigning heavily for the last few years to move them in here with us. It’s going to happen and probably soon. But I’d much rather put it off as long as possible. When it happens, I’m going to feel like another little bit of my private life will be taken away from me.

Anyway, thank you Dani for the comments and ideas. I love them both. But as to the hair, well… I really need a haircut right now, but you see, there’s these little bald spots on top that are getting bigger and bigger, so I don’t really think it’s going to lend itself to any kind of feminine cut. Plus, as long as it is, it’s still to short. And, I have to go to work too.

But… now let’s talk about the pants idea. Would you believe that I almost bought a pair of fem slacks when I first started this week? I think in the future that that is going to be a must. But then of course I really have to find the nerve to wear them in public somewhere. Something to dream about for sure.

One of the things I’ve always wanted to do and never had the courage is a simple little thing. I’d love to be able to go and fill put gas in my car while wearing high heels. It’s amazing how many things I’ve done for real that are probably much worse, but that simple little task has eluded me completely. Someday… someday!

I guess I have to tell you that I’ve just finished unlocking all my toilets. You absolutely wouldn’t believe how long it took for that ice with the keys in it to melt – even out on my porch where the temperature was in the mid 90s all day. When I got home from work, the block was mostly melted, except for the part all around the keys. I couldn’t believe it. It looked like almost a quart of water still solidly frozen. I finally had to run it under the water in the kitchen to finish the job. When I did, the keys were finally exposed and then began separating themselves like leaves, one at a time. I have no doubt at all that if I really wanted to, that block of ice would have made unlocking my toilets impossible for a very long time.

So now I’m planning either for the future, or it’s still a possibility, next week. I think what I’m going to need to do is to pay more homage to both sided of my sissyness. I really need to “exploit” the little feminine things that women get to do all the time, while at the same time I need to delve further into the sissy baby within me. I guess I really wanted to feel thoroughly humiliated by both sides far more than I have.

One of the ideas I’ve thought of is to perhaps buy several colors of nail polish, then be required to paint my fingernails a different color every day – with pictures, and not be able to remove it till the next morning. Then of course I should have a few tasks during the week that would modestly expose them. Another thing I’d like to explore again is the use of false nails. I did that once. You wouldn’t believe how hard it is to do anything with those things!

Time is short, so I’m just hoping and praying.