Non-Event

Yes I did. I wore my diapers to work again yesterday – and I enjoyed it. But to be perfectly honest with you, it was much more of a non-event. And why shouldn’t it be? I’m totally discrete about it, so nobody knows I’m wearing them. I’ve been wearing them so long now that I’m completely comfortable wearing them. So they were really not much of an issue for me. To be honest, I didn’t drink hardly anything at all throughout the day so I didn’t really have to pee much anyway. And I am definitely holding back while at work and not wetting myself freely. I doubt very much that will change. So as long as I’m being discrete, I know that it’s really nobody else’s business – and they really don’t know anyway. I was able to concentrate a lot better on my job yesterday and didn’t think nearly as much about what I was wearing underneath. And that’s the way it should be.

There was an added bonus too. Since I was already diapered, I didn’t have to rush from my shower to get to work like I usually do so as not to use any of the toilets in my house. And coming home was the same way. I usually get in the door and rush to get changed into my diapers immediately. I didn’t have to worry about that yesterday. In fact, I stopped and bought a burger on the way home and didn’t change till after I had eaten.

One odd thing I did notice that surprised me though, when I got home, I couldn’t wrap my mind around doing my relaxing exercises. In fact, I was having a lot of trouble peeing freely all night long. I was mostly fighting with myself to keep from tensing up and stopping the pee. It was almost as if my body was trying to fight back from this retraining that I’ve been doing. I tried several times to do my exercises, but my mind just wouldn’t go there. I woke up again in the middle of the night last night as I often do. And when I was able to go back to bed again, I was finally able to do my relaxing exercises completely. And this time they took hold immediately. For the last few hours I have had no knowledge at all of when I’m going to pee till it’s already coming out of me. My muscles are totally relaxed and feeling wonderful. And I no longer even want to try to tighten those muscles. I sure wish I knew why I couldn’t get that way last night.

I keep thinking about nail polish lately. I really enjoyed having long pretty nails last weekend. I don’t know if I’ll get to do that this weekend or not because I have a lot of chores to do. I do know though, at the least, I’ll be painting my fingernails every day. I have several colors that I’ve already bought. I also think I’ll be doing some shoe shopping again. Why? Well, aside from the fact that I’m a total nut over high heels, I’d really like a pair that will show off my pretty toenails. Right now, all my heels have closed toes. I don’t even know I’m wearing polish on my toenails till I get undressed to take my shower. So I think it’s time for some new shoes. I can’t wait!