The Last Jeskey
By
Karen Singer
Chapter 8
Natalie
I hurried to the door.
As expected, Lila was on the other side.
“Six feet of hair?
Really?” she asked sarcastically as if she didn’t believe me.
I let her come in and closed the door. Softly I said, “Lila. Unless I miss my guess, you’re about to meet
your first real live slave. And just so
you know, she’s white, and I seriously doubt she even knows she a slave.”
“You’re joking again, right?”
“No. Unfortunately,
I’m not. And what’s worse, we don’t know
what her real name is. Everyone seems to
have just called her Freak.”
Lila was looking at me like she didn’t know what to
think. “Freak? For real?”
“I’m pretty sure she was a slave Lila,” I told her. “I’m also pretty sure she has no concept of
that. Her sense of reality is all…totally
warped.”
“For real,” she said.
“For real,” I confirmed.
“Come on. We just got out of the
shower. She’s in my bedroom now.”
I led the way back through the house. “Can you stay for dinner?” I asked.
“I ate already,” she told me. “I just wanted to see what you called six
feet of hair.”
I briefly looked back at her but kept leading the way.
In my room, it took Lila no time to notice the girl sitting
in the chair. She saw Amanda there
too. “Amanda,” Lila greeted her, despite
the fact that her eyes never once left Freak.
Lila stood there and shook her head for the longest
time. “I have never seen hair that
long.”
“Freak,” I said. “Are
you rested enough to stand up?”
Freak worked her way out of the chair and dropped her hair,
letting it fall behind her. As wet as it
was, and as tangled as it was, it came down to her ankles. Lila walked around behind her for a better
look. “My God,” she breathed. “Six feet of hair. Or close enough. For real!”
I saw her take a big breath, gathering herself. “Right!” she said. “Let’s get to work.” She looked Freak in the eyes. “Um…Freak…” she said, “and I hope you don’t
mind if I call you that, how about if we cut that hair to a more manageable
length. Something tells me you’d be a
lot happier, and it wouldn’t take us nearly as long. And trust me, I’m a hairdresser, I can make
it look real pretty for you. Wouldn’t
that be nice?”
I noticed the panic hit the girl’s eyes the moment Lila
suggested cutting it.
“No!” Freak cried as she took a step away from her and
grabbed all her hair again, hugging that huge amount of mass tightly to her
body. It’s mine! I need it.
It’s precious to me. Please don’t
cut it. Please!”
“Okay!” Lila said quickly.
“It was just a suggestion, that’s all.
No scissors. It’s just going to
take a bit longer to straighten out.”
She paused a moment looking at that huge mass of hair again. “Maybe more than a bit longer.”
Lila turned to me.
“Any chance we can get a decent chair for her to sit in? Something I can work behind.”
“On it,” Amanda offered.
She disappeared and reappeared moments later with a chair from the
dining room table. Perfect. Freak was put in the chair and Lila started
pulling tools out of her large bag. She
grabbed both a comb and a brush and instead of starting at the top, she started
at the bottom, working little bits of it at a time, trying to untie all those
tangles that looked like they had been knotting themselves for years. I heard her mutter that it would be a lot
easier to do if she could cut it, or at least cut the tangles, but she kept
working despite that.
The more I looked Freak over, and the more I thought about
the way she must have lived, I thought it might be possible that she might have
never bothered to brush her hair at all.
Eventually, Lila started to use the comb, the brush, and
blow dryer on sections of her hair, all at the same time. Amazingly, little by little, Freak’s hair
started to straighten out. Since Freak
was sitting down, it was hard to tell, but I had no doubt that her hair was
getting longer. There was also no doubt
that it was starting to look a lot fuller.
Wow, that girl had a head of hair!
If it was cut properly, any woman would die for it.
Will came into the bedroom while Lila was working. “Chicken’s done,” he whispered. “I put some vegetables on the stove, but I
don’t want to cook them yet since I don’t know how long you’re gonna be.”
I kissed him.
“Thanks. You’re a good man
William Cobb. Not like those louts that
have been keeping her!”
“I aim to please,” Will replied as he kissed me back. “If you’re going to be a while still, I’ll be
out watching TV. Call if you need me.”
“Thanks,” I told him.
“I hope it won’t be too much longer.”
Eventually, Lila declared that she was done with Freak’s
hair. “Freak,” Lila said. “Maybe stand up so we can see what it all
looks like.”
“I could see how nervous Freak looked. Or was that scared? Maybe both.
Slowly, she stood up and Lila pulled her away from the chair so her mass
of hair could hang like a long, beautiful curtain behind her.
“Wow!” I heard Amanda mutter.
I could only agree. I
walked over for a closer look behind Freak.
I stared at the floor. Her hair
actually draped on the floor by a good four or five inches.
“It’s like a train,” Amanda realized. “If she ever gets married, she won’t need one
for her wedding dress, she’s already got it.”
I saw Freak looking at me, that worried look was still
plastered on her face. I had a full-length
mirror on the wall. I grabbed her and
pulled her over to it. “Look how
beautiful you are,” I whispered. I
watched as she stood in front of that mirror and stared at herself. I was about to suggest that she imagine
herself wearing something real pretty, when her face screwed up into total fear
and she let out a cry of complete alarm.
“Oh no!” she cried. “No!” She turned to me. “What am I going to do? This is bad.
This isn’t what I want!”
“What’s wrong?” I asked, completely concerned.
“If the guys see me like this, they’re going to want to have
sex more often. All the time! I hate when they do that too much. This is just going to make it worse!”
I quickly turned her around and hugged her tightly. “Don’t you worry about that!” I told her
firmly. “In fact, you never have to
worry about that again. I guarantee
it. That life is over! As of right now, earlier today in fact, all
that misery is long behind you! You’re
free now Freak. Free!”
There were tears falling from her eyes. “No,” she wailed. “You don’t understand.”
“Then tell me.”
“Dave and Gary are still there, and it’s a good thing they
are. If they weren’t, I don’t know what
I’d do. I need them. I need them badly. Without them, I’d die!”
“What do you mean, you’d die? No, you wouldn’t.”
“I would. I know for
a fact that I would.”
“Why?” I asked.
“I just would. I need
them to take care of me, and they do.
That’s their job. That’s what men
do.”
Something told me I wasn’t going to get through to her in
one fell swoop. Her rotten life was too
ingrained in her. “Freak,” I said. “For now, just don’t worry about them ever
having sex with you again. Okay? Don’t worry about it. I’ll talk to my husband, and we’ll make sure they
never do it. I promise.”
She shook her head.
“There’s nothing you can do.
There’s nothing anyone can do.
Besides,” She seemed to sigh as
she paused. “It’s a small price to pay
for them taking such good care of me for so long. And…I guess I really don’t mind that much. It’s just…sometimes they can hurt, you
know? But most of the time, it doesn’t
last that long. I’m used to it. And…”
She pulled back and looked me in the eyes. “I don’t care what you think. I know girls aren’t supposed to care if it
feels good for them or not, but sometimes, as rough as they are, it just…”
She stopped talking.
“What Freak?” I asked, trying to get her to go on.
“It feels good to have someone hold me and touch me like
that. It feels good to know they care
about me. You may not understand, but
that’s the way it is. And I know it’s
not right for me to care, but I do.
I…like to be held sometimes.
Sometimes, I need to feel someone touch me. I need to feel…wanted. I’m sorry, but I do.”
Wanted. Needed. That was the crux of it. Human contact. And more than that, love. The one most essential thing that a human
needs. Even if it was the completely
warped imaginary love that Freak had probably convinced herself was the real
thing.
I hugged her again.
“It’s okay Freak. It’s okay. I understand.
But Freak, we’ll do something to help you. That much I promise. Okay?
Just know, we’re going to help.”
She shook her head.
“But I don’t really need help. I
know what they all like. I know what I
need to do, and I’m good at it. I can
take care of all the women’s business on the farm. I’ve been doing it all my life.”
“Trust me,” I said.
“You need help, even if you don’t understand that. And like it or not, we’re going to help you.”
“How?” she asked.
“I don’t know yet,” I admitted. “We haven’t had time to get all the details
yet. I never knew you were out there
before, and I’m pretty sure that Will didn’t know it either.”
“Nobody was supposed to know I live there. Bo was real strict about that. Girls aren’t supposed to go showing
themselves to everybody who comes to the house unless the men want it. We’re supposed to be quiet and out of sight,
not distracting to men’s business. Girls
have their own business to take care of, and it has nothing to do with men’s
business.”
I had plenty I could say to that, but something told me she
wouldn’t believe me. “Okay,” I said
softly as I pulled back and patted her lightly on the chest. A thought hit me. “Maybe,” I said. “Maybe just for now, you can know that you’ve
got a friend. Maybe a few friends now,
that are just yours. Not their friends,
your friends. And Freak, we care about
you. Okay? We didn’t know you before, but now we do, and
we’re now your friends, and we care about you.
Can you live with that?”
I saw her struggling with the concept. Did she even know what a friend was? Maybe not.
I pulled her to me and hugged her again.
I was about to let go of her when I felt her arms hesitantly wrap
themselves around me too. Very lightly,
she hugged me back. When we pulled away
I said, “Come on Freak. Let’s get you
some dinner.”
She smiled at that.
Amanda led the way out of the bedroom, and Lila and I followed. I watched Freak’s hair trail on the floor as
she headed out to the dining table. Her
own wedding train. But would a girl like
her ever get married? I wanted that for
her, but somehow I knew it was doubtful it would ever happen. What kind of prospects for life did she
really have? I doubted she had any at
all. And she probably had no way to
improve that situation either. Another
reason why she literally needed to have the Jeskey clan taking care of her…like
it or not.
Will was still watching TV as we headed with Lila toward the
door, but with Freak in front of me I had to stop when she did. She was staring at the TV. “Freak.
What’s wrong? Anything?”
I watched as she turned her head this way and that, looking
at the TV screen. She moved closer to
it. “Hello,” she said to the screen.
Yeah, I was shocked, and I think so was everyone else.
Freak moved closer to the TV and waved her hand in front of
it. “Hello!” she said louder. “Who are you talking to?”
She seemed to be getting upset.
“Freak,” Will said quickly.
“It’s just the TV.”
“T…Fee?”
“TV,” Will said again.
“Don’t you know what a TV is?”
She just stared at him for a moment then looked at the
screen and waved her hand in front of it again.
“Hello! Can you hear me?”
“Freak,” Will said.
“It’s not real! There’s no one
there you can talk to.”
“But there are people…”
She pointed to the screen.
“But there not real.
It’s like…pictures. You can’t
talk to anyone there.”
I watched as Freak seemed to take that in, then something
seemed to click in her head. “Like
cellphones?” she asked.
“Sort of,” Will confirmed.
Freak nodded. “The
guys spend a lot of time looking at pictures on their cellphones, but I’ve
never really seen them. So the
cellphones are like this, only…smaller?”
“Kind of,” Will said.
Freak took that in, then nodded. “Men’s business. Sorry,” she said, then moved away.
Men’s business again.
She had never even seen a TV before.
Come tomorrow morning, I wondered which one of those Jeskey men I was
going to shoot first.
I said goodbye to Lila at the door and promised I’d be in
touch with her tomorrow. The TV was off,
and Will was in the kitchen when I went back to the others. Amanda was setting the table. Freak was just staring at it all like she
didn’t know what to do. “Are you okay?”
I asked.
She shook her head.
“All day I’ve seen things I don’t understand. All day.
It’s…too much! I
feel…strange. Like I’m afraid.”
I was guessing it was a bit of panic. “What don’t you understand now?” I asked.
She pointed to the table.
“Do we all sit down together to eat?”
“Of course,” I replied.
“Why not?”
“But we’re women…”
She looked toward the kitchen.
“And he’s a man.”
“Yeah. So?”
“So the women aren’t supposed to eat till after the men are
done, and only if there’s enough food left.
That’s why it’s so important that we make enough when we cook it.”
“We have got to get you a new life!” I muttered, more to
myself than to her. “Trust me, there’s
plenty of food. And if there isn’t,
we’ll cook more. And like it or not,
we’ll all eat together. In fact, I
insist on it.”
“You? But you’re not
a man.”
“Honey,” I said, “if anyone ever tried to stop me, I’d be
the one doing the killing. Just sit down
and eat with us and try to enjoy it.”
She looked at me skeptically.
A few minutes later, we all sat down to eat, and when Freak
took her first bite of the chicken, she looked like she was going to freak
out. “How do you get it to taste like
this?” she asked. “This is so good!”
“Thanks,” Will said.
“I do try.”
“You cooked it. I
know you did,” Freak said. “But…it
tastes so good!”
“Freak,” I said, wondering something. “If only women do the cooking, who taught you
to cook?”
“Bo can cook some. He
taught me. He showed me how he likes
everything and that’s the way I make sure it is, all the time.”
“So men do some cooking too,” I pointed out.
“Only if they have to.
They have me to do it for them now.”
I saw her face cloud. “I don’t
think Dave and Gary can cook at all though.
They are really going to kill me when I get home.” She looked over at me. “At the least, they’ll probably punish me.”
“Punish you?” Will asked.
“How?”
She shrugged. “I
don’t know. I never know. They’ve got lots of ways, and all of it is
painful. Plus, I know I’ll be eating dog
food for a long time after this. It’s
okay though,” she said. “I’m used to
it. They’ll get over it.” I saw her look up. “Bo’s not there now though,” she said. “Maybe…maybe it won’t be so bad.”
“Hopefully not!” Will said firmly. “And they better not do any of that!”
Freak shook her head.
“Dave’s not always so bad,” she said.
“But Gary likes to be mean.”
“Gary?” I asked.
She nodded. “He likes
it.”
It certainly wasn’t the food that was going to make me sick
during dinner. It was Freak’s life! But that was the point where Will decided to
start being the sheriff again. “Freak,”
he said while he stuffed mashed potatoes into his mouth. “You keep talking about men’s business and
women’s business. What do you know about
the men’s business out where you live?”
That was a question I myself was very interested in.
Freak took the time to stick another piece of chicken into
her mouth before she answered…while she looked down at her plate. “Not much,” she told him. “Men’s business is their concern. Girls aren’t supposed to know anything about
it.”
“But you do hear things,” Will said. “You have to.
That place where you live, the kitchen and the living area are all like
one big room. So maybe you’ve heard
things they talk about while you’re cooking and they’re in the room too, taking
care of…business.”
I saw Freak consider that.
“I’ve heard…some,” she admitted.
“But I don’t understand any of it.
Mostly they talk about stuff like that at the table.”
“While you eat?” I asked.
She shook her head.
“While they eat, or drink, or just sit at the table. I’m a girl!” she said pointedly. “I’ve got no business eating with them.”
I wanted to ask if eating ever got lonely for her, but I bit
my tongue.
“What kind of things do they talk about then?” Will asked.
I saw Freak shrug.
“Deals, I think,” she replied.
“Selling stuff. Getting
stuff. Shipments. I really don’t know.”
“Selling stuff,” Will said.
“What kind of stuff? Drugs?”
“I don’t know,” Freak insisted. “I don’t know what any of it is.”
“Have you heard them mention any goods they sell?” Will
pressed. “They must have mentioned some
things.”
Again, Freak shook her head.
“I’m sure they do,” she said.
“But I don’t know what any of it is.”
“Like what?” Will pushed.
“I don’t know,” Freak said, trying to think of things. “I’ve heard them say things like meth. crystal, Opie something. And lately they’ve been saying things like brownings,
AK’s, automat something. I don’t
know. I can’t remember, and I don’t know
what any of it is. It’s men’s business! Not mine!”
“You said AK’s?” Will said.
“AK-47s?”
“What? No. They just say AK. I don’t know what that is.”
Will looked over at Amanda.
“We had no idea they were running guns.
And automatics at that.”
I saw how surprised Amanda looked to hear about it too.
“Freak,” Will said.
“Do you know where they keep their drugs? Or where they keep those guns?”
“I don’t know for sure.
They’ve got hidden places all over the farm. Places that nobody can find.”
“But you know where those places are?”
“I’ve seen them go into some, but that’s all men’s business
and they make sure I stay away. Why
would I be interested anyway? I’ve got
my own business to worry about.”
“It sounds like we’ll be making another trip to their farm
tomorrow,” Amanda said softly.
Will nodded his agreement.
“Especially if she can show us where those places are.”
Now that the subject of illegal activities was hopefully
over with, I turned to Freak. “Freak,” I
said. “I should have asked you this
before. I really hate calling you
that. Don’t you have another name? Something nicer?”
She seemed surprised.
“Nicer? What’s wrong with
Freak? It’s my name.”
“It’s not something nice,” I told her. Something occurred to me. “Do you know what a freak is?” I asked.
She shrugged. “It’s
just my name. How can a name be
something else?”
She had no clue! “So
you don’t know of any other name for yourself?”
“Of course not. I’m
Freak. Why would I have another name?”
“So you’re okay being called that?” I asked.
She seemed to get frustrated. “Why does everybody keep asking about my
name? It’s Freak! Okay?
I’m sorry if you don’t like it.”
She suddenly looked around the table, I could see the terror in her
eyes. “No!” she said softly like she was
scared to death. “I’m sorry. I’m sorry.
I didn’t mean to upset you. I
didn’t mean to yell. I just…all day
today it’s been…I’m…I just don’t understand anything!” Her head bent down, and I saw tears falling
from her eyes.
“Freak,” I said softly.
“It’s okay. Don’t cry,
please. You didn’t upset us at all. You didn’t do anything wrong at all. It’s all good. Please don’t cry.”
She looked up at me.
She stopped crying, but her head bent down toward her plate again.
“Eat your dinner,” I suggested softly. “It’s all okay Freak. I promise.”
I saw her pick up her fork again and take another bite of
chicken. I was looking around at
everyone else at the table when I heard her softly say. “It’s funny.
And I don’t know why. But I kind
of like the way Roxie says my name. It’s
not like everybody else.”
“How’s that?” I asked.
“My name is Freak, but she always says it…Freaky. I don’t know why, but I kind of like it.”
“Would you rather we all called you Freaky instead of
Freak?”
She shrugged.
“Why? My name is Freak.”
Yeah, I was going to shoot someone. Maybe a lot of someones!
After dinner, Amanda left and I took Freak into the spare
bedroom. “Do you want a pair of my
pajamas to sleep in?” I asked.
“Pajamas?” she asked.
I realized immediately that she didn’t have a clue what they
were. “How about a nightgown instead. Do you know what that is?” Her face brightened. “I’ve got one at home,” she said. “I don’t always bother wearing it, especially
when it’s cold out, but when it’s warm, it’s nice. I’d wear it all the time in the summer if
they let me.”
“I’ll get you a nightgown,” I told her.
“Um…” she said.
“Yes?”
“Um… I’ve kind of got
to pee again,” she said.
“You know where the bathroom is,” I told her. “You don’t have to even ask. Just go.”
She seemed disappointed.
“Which means I guess,” she said, “that you don’t have a proper pee hole
outside.”
Pee hole? “A what?”
“A pee hole where the girls are supposed to pee and poop.”
“We pee like we’re supposed to!” I said. “In the bathroom. In the toilet. Where everyone, men and women both, are
supposed to do it. Not in some lousy
hole outside.” I got my frustrated anger
under control. “I’m sorry,” I told
her. “Please, just use the
bathroom. I’ll bring a nightgown to you
there.”
Two minutes later, I pushed my way into the bathroom with one
of my oldest gowns. Somehow I knew it
was probably far better than anything she had ever worn. But the moment I got into the bathroom, I
stopped and stared, not believing what I was seeing. She was standing over the toilet seat, facing
the wall. The hem of her robe pulled up
to her waist.
“What are you doing?” I asked.
“Trying to figure out how to pee with this thing.”
“Stop!” I told her.
“Just turn around and sit down on it.
That’s how a lady pees. Always!”
She seemed confused, but she turned around, pulled the robe
she was wearing way up out of the way and sat down properly. And peed.
I breathed a sigh of relief.
“See,” I said. “Easy. Right?”
She shrugged. “So is
my pee hole at home. In fact, it’s
easier. I don’t even have to sit down.”
Something told me I wasn’t going to win that argument, but
she had to learn. I am not going
to go into our discussion about using the toilet paper. It seemed that toilet paper was another one
of those things reserved just for men.
Which of those Jeskeys was I going to kill first?
I helped her remove her robe and get the nightgown on, which
was a major effort due to all that hair.
Then I led her to the guestroom to sleep.
“Is it okay if I sleep over there?” she asked as she pointed
to the floor just past the bed.
I was momentarily confused.
“What do you mean?”
“Where should I sleep?
Do you care?”
“Yes! Yes I care,” I
told her. “Sleep in the bed! Don’t you sleep in a bed at home?”
“Of course not,” she said.
“The guys have all the beds. I’m
only allowed to be in them for sex.”
“They don’t allow you to sleep in a bed?” I asked, not
believing it.
“There aren’t any left.
Besides, I’m a girl.”
“You’re a girl, you’re a girl, you’re a girl! Geez!”
We had to straighten out all these misconceptions she had. I just didn’t know where to start. Nor was it the time just then. “Please,” I said. “Please sleep in the bed. You’ll love it. I promise.
It’s got a real good mattress.”
She seemed skeptical, but she climbed up onto the bed and I
helped get her hair arranged before I pulled the covers over her. “Goodnight Freak,” I said as kindly to her as
I could. “Sleep… Sleep like you’re in the best, happiest place
possible. Because you are. Goodnight.”
I turned out the light and left her.
A little while later, just before getting into bed myself, I
went back to check on her. She was sound
asleep, but not in the bed. She had
moved to the floor without a blanket or a pillow. Her long hair was wrapped all around her
body, and part of it formed a pillow for her head. Seeing that, it struck me why she didn’t want
her hair cut. Believe it or not, all
that hair was like her security blanket.
Having it surrounding her, or even just having it to hold or touch,
comforted her. Very quietly, I pulled a
blanket off the bed and draped it over her.
I walked back to my own bed, wondering what the heck we
needed to do to help that poor girl. I
was a social worker for the county. Will
was the county sheriff. But I wasn’t
sure that even between the two of us we could do anything for her at all.
Will was waiting for me in bed. “Is she alright?” he asked.
“Sort of,” I told him.
“She moved to the floor, but she’s sound asleep.” I saw him shake his head.
“Will,” I said. “What
did they do with the bodies?”
“Bodies?” he asked.
“Bo and his two sons.”
“They’re at the morgue of course.”
“Can I borrow your gun?”
“My gun? What for?”
“So I can go there and shoot them!”
He laughed. “Won’t do
you any good. They’re dead. Remember?”
“Not dead enough!”