Thursday, January 22, 2009

Coming Back Together

Things are starting to come back together for me – finally. My cold is still with me and I’m still coughing a lot, but my brain is finally clearing out and I’m starting to be able to think again (I missed that surprisingly).

Also, my internet connection suddenly returned yesterday. We actually purchased a mobile air card like you use in a laptop for our internet connection “stupidly” thinking that it would solve all our problems – it didn’t. Clicking on a page three times to get it to load completely is not a good thing. And the darn thing set up a horrible interference with my computer speaker where even with the volume off we were getting this really loud obnoxious noise out of them.

I’ve been able now to get back to writing my story and have finished the next chapter and gone a good way into the next one. I want to wait to finish the next chapter before I post another story chapter again.

And, with feeling better, my drive to live the sissy life has come back full force (and then some). I dream of dresses and shoes and other feminine things. Ok, I daydream about them just as much as at night. What fun. It would be more fun though to wear what I’m thinking about.

So to all, I’m working on being back again. Laugh at yourself today – and feel good about it.

Monday, January 12, 2009

Difficult Week

It’s been a difficult start to the New Year for me for sure. For the past week my cold has backed-up and has been stomping on me terribly. I’ve gone to work every day, but I really haven’t been able to accomplish much. Even now I’m still aching and coughing almost continuously. I really just want to go to sleep and stay there.

Then to make matters worse, it looks like my internet connection may be a thing of the past. I live in a very rural area and have been lucky enough to have wireless broadband service through the city that is just a few miles up the road. But lately I’ve had almost no service at all. The company came out and spent a lot of time checking and it looks like I’ve got 900 mhz interference from somewhere that is totally wiping out my internet signal. The internet service company has only old outdated equipment is not likely to be doing any upgrading (they’ve been talking about discontinuing the service completely). So the bottom line is that they can’t help me. Trust me, dialup connection would be a lot faster than what I’ve had for the last week. If I don’t find a way around that, I may have to resort to dialup – which I really don’t want to do.

So there’s a lot of blogs and websites that I check regularly that I haven’t been able to get to for a while now and I don’t know when I will.

I also need to get back to my story, but lately I’ve felt so bad that I can’t concentrate on doing anything. Hopefully I can continue to post again as soon as I’m feeling a bit better. Doing all this from work is not a really “safe” option for me and I’m trying to do it sparingly.

So to all who check in here once in a while, I’m still here, just having “technical” difficulties right now.

Be happy everyone – despite how you really feel.

Friday, January 2, 2009

Relaxing Day

Yesterday was a very nice, relaxing day. I spent every minute of it dressed, mostly in my blue skirt with the black top. Of course I was wearing my bra and pantyhose too. I think I changed my heels about every four or five hours just for the thrill of wearing them each.

My cold still has me feeling more than a bit under the weather and I wound up sleeping on the couch through a good part of the afternoon. But it was still just a wonderful relaxing day. I think I needed it. I didn’t finish cleaning the house yet, I’ll have to do the rest tonight. There’s not all that much I need to worry about anyway.

One thing I noticed yesterday, that I’ve noticed many times before was that there really is no sexual thrill in dressing feminine. It just really feels “normal.” Somehow, it’s more right for me than men’s clothes. Strange but true. Anyway, I love it.

I did go out to the drive through last night, “mostly” fully dressed. I scrubbed the makeup off and since it was cold I threw a jacket over what I was wearing. I don’t think the teller at the window had any idea that I was wearing a skirt and high heels in the car. Not really exciting, but I did it anyway. I didn’t go out to get gas later though. Maybe tonight.

Anyway, that was about it. Not very exciting, but still very fulfilling for me.

Thursday, January 1, 2009

Slow Day

Yesterday was a bit of a long day for me. Just when I thought my cold was easing up a bit, it started to get worse again. Consequently, work seemed to really drag by very long. I was so tired last night that I laid down on the couch and fell asleep watching TV. I woke up about 9 pm and just put my nightgown on and went straight to bed – without rediapering myself for the night. I had diapered myself about 6 pm when I came home from work with two diapers. This is great for most of the day and I usually change myself every four or five hours. But for nighttime I really need three diapers and I really did last night. I woke up early this morning realizing that I had leaked. It’s a good thing I keep plastic under my sheets to protect the bed from just these types of accidents. Oh well, the sheets probably needed washing anyway.

I had started to make big plans to stay enfemme all day today, and I’m hoping to stick to exactly that. Heels and skirts all the time. Hopefully, I won’t have to leave the house – although I am seriously thinking about some little “special” trips. Like maybe to go through a drive-through to get dinner tonight. And then later I want to put some gas in my car again while wearing heels. I’ll probably dress very conservatively for these trips if I do them – nothing to bring attention to myself. I still dream of having the courage to go walking in public somewhere while wearing heels, but I just can’t quite mentally get there yet. I guess I need to keep pushing myself a tiny bit more each time.

I have to clean the entire house today before I go to get my wife on Saturday. There’s an awful lot to do, but at least it’s something I can do happily while I’m dressed the way I want to be.

Happy New Year everyone.