Friday, June 26, 2009

Where Am I?

It's been a while since I've been able to post. Sorry about that.

My internet connection at home continues to be somewhere between very bad and non-existant. I'm now actively working on getting myself satellite internet service instead, but I'm afraid it's going to take a while to get.

In the mean time, there are a few blogs and websites that I like to visit every day that I either can't get to, or if I want to add comments, I don't have enough internet power to do it. Those sites I don't dare access from work.

As to my last adventure - as you've probably guessed, I'm still missing it. I really missed it the most the entire first week afterwards. It was like a drug that I could no longer get. After all the time I spent in diapers, I didn't really have any trouble at all going without them again. I think it's like a switch in my body that get's thrown one way or another. Although... I did almost wet the bed in the middle of the first week back. I think that's the closest I ever came to that problem that I can remember. Fortunatly, I woke up just in time and realized what I had almost done!

My in-laws are still visiting and we are planning to take them back home again next week, but I know it won't be long till they're living with us permanently. They really can't be by themselves anymore - especially my father-in-law. He can hardly walk and won't hear of using a wheelchair. He can't hear very well, and he just get's so confused and forgets things so often. All he can do is sit and watch TV or sit and watch the birds in our backyard. Unfortunately, the weather has been incredibly hot and being outside where he really likes it the best is not a good idea. He absolutely can not be left alone at all at any time - which makes everything all the more difficult. At home they have trouble just getting groceries because of him.

Anyway. I just wanted to let everybody know that I'm still here. It's just difficult without internet service.

Monday, June 8, 2009

Sensations and Overload

Hi all. Well, yesterday was another pretty good day for me. Although I’ve got to admit, I think I was definitely getting very tired of all the baby stuff after a while. But it was still a great day.

I watched three more Barbie videos yesterday and right from the start, I was struck by the sheer femininity of them. After watching enough of them, it’s kind of like being brainwashed. I found myself walking around with my hands in a certain way and holding the lower part of my arms out a bit, as if I were wearing much fuller skirts than I was. Lovely, absolutely lovely. Let’s see, I started with Rapunzel, then Swan Lake, and finished with the Diamond Castle. Oh, and I’m not really ashamed to admit it here, but I cried during all of them. Am I becoming a softie or what?

I had a blended up banana and some milk for breakfast again yesterday, but I really didn’t know what I wanted for lunch, so I wound up eating two more jars of the baby food and nothing else: Sweet potatoes & Turkey and Apples & Chicken. I still think it tastes better than what I’m making. A bit too sweet perhaps, but better. For dinner last night I took another TV dinner – Country Fried Steak with a mix of vegetables and put that into the blender – Yuck! I think I’m more than ready for some regular food now. Definitely! In fact, I’m very much looking forward to it.

I did a bit of cleaning in the house yesterday. I had bought a cheap sponge mop on Friday to do the tile floors with since I don’t really like the mop my wife uses. But I had bought a really cheap one (I was only going to use it once). I got done with one bathroom and was about to start on the second one when the darn thing fell apart. I spent the rest of the day trying to convince myself that I really could go out to the store and get another one – even with just my nail polish showing. But in the end, I just couldn’t do it. Failure. I’m afraid I’m just not that brave yet. Oh, my nail polish is a very glittery pink. I love it to death! I’m going to have fits removing it for work in a little while.

I’m afraid all the baby stuff was beginning to tire on me yesterday. I got really tired of keeping my teddy bear with me all the time. I got tired of not using any of the furniture (my dog didn’t mind though), I actually got tired of drinking everything from a baby bottle, and I got tired of eating only baby food. I guess I had had enough, but wow, did I still feel juvenile all day. Almost like a bit of punishment.

Late in the afternoon, I had an email from Mistress Gina who instructed me to put clothes pins on my nipples and two on my ball sac and then edge. And then do it all again an hour later. Let me tell you, the best part of that for me was really getting to get out of my heavy sopping wet diaper a bit earlier since I still had two hours to go before I was scheduled to get changed. The clothes pins hurt of course, especially on my nipples.
But my biggest problem is that little chastity device I’m wearing. I have the nylon pulled so tight that I can’t really get hard at all. But still, you don’t know how great it felt to be able to touch myself like that. Wonderful! I was trembling in my backside over it. But I couldn’t get hard, and to be honest, I’m not sure my thingy down there was even trying to get hard (oddly). I had to work at it for almost fifteen minutes to get myself to the edge, and even then I’m not sure how far I really was. Because of the chastity device, I couldn’t get at that one really sensitive spot that I have, and I was thinking about giving up a few times, but I didn’t – well, it felt great to touch myself. Eventually though, I had a bunch of (what I hope was) cum running out of my chastity device and into the baby bottle or the bowl I had under it. I really hope it was cum that was dripping and not pee. Anyway, removing the clothes pins turned out to be the real pain of wearing them –especially from my nipples. They feel so sore afterwards.

Then of course I had to do it all again and hour later – as if I really minded. I had only rediapered myself with a single diaper to make everything easier. That part was, but not the edging. I worked and worked at myself, and in the end, I barely got anything to drip out at all. So frustrating. But then I guess that’s the point of edging. Putting the clothes pins on my nipples is bad enough and the pain kind of settles down to a background roar, but I definitely don’t like removing them from my nipples – they hurt.

Mistress Gina sent me one more set of instructions for the evening: Three coats of mascara before bed and to see if my wife had any hair curlers and put them in my hair. The mascara of course was no problem (although my eyes feel a bit irritated right now). I did find some of my wife’s hair curlers, but the only ones she has are super big. I managed to get four of them into my hair (sort of). I haven’t had a haircut in quite a while now and I really need one, but these curlers are still way too big for the hair that I have. I got them on, but when I tried to lay down, they pretty much fell off almost right away. Now I’ve been sleeping in thick heavy diapers every night and I’ve kind of gotten very used to that. Then Mistress Gina added the bra and water balloons and that’s (sort of) become ok too. Then she had me change the sheet on my bed for a plastic one (a good idea considering how much I’ve been peeing this weekend). I’ve gotten used to the plastic sheet too – noisy and I kind of stick to it after a while. The end result is that amazingly, I’m still sleeping well. Since the hair curlers wouldn’t stay in, they turned out to be no problem, but I have to wonder, will she make me get smaller ones that will stay in? That could be a much bigger problem.

Well, as usual about now, I’m wondering what the day will bring me. I know it’s going to be very busy at work since one of my co-workers is off for the week and I’ll have to handle her job as well as mine. But I also know that it’s going to be filled with wonderful thoughts of feminine (and probably humiliating) things too.

What would you like your day to bring you?

Saturday, June 6, 2009

The Adventure Continues

My wife will be away for another week so I’ll be continuing to play. Last night I spent most of the evening driving everywhere searching for an enema kit that Mistress Gina had directed. I wasn’t able to find any – but I got a lot of strange looks from every pharmacist that I asked.

I had no time to do anything else yesterday, but today… well that’s another matter.

Be happy everyone,

Thursday, June 4, 2009

Just When It Was Getting Gook

Well, I guess things are mostly over. I got a call from my wife yesterday morning and I’ll be going to pick her up on Saturday – and – I’ll be bringing my in-laws back too for an “extended” vacation. It’s really in preparation for them living here full time.

I was in the process of doing my nails last night after I got home from work when the phone rang again. I had to go out to help with my grandkids. One of them had been a smart-aleck and had ended up accidently putting his hand through a glass window. He’s okay, but the hospital had to pull some tiny fragments out of his skin and he’s going to be hurting for quite a while. So against all my desires, life had intruded once again.

I have a lot of things – mostly cleaning – that I have to do before I get my wife. So when I got home last night I sent an email off to Mistress Gina telling her that I can’t play any more this adventure. Right now, I’m sitting here in my very wet diapers, bra with balloons, heels, and nightgown – and wishing with all my heart that it could continue for much, much longer. But that’s the way it goes. I’m grateful for everything I can get. But with each passing adventure, I find myself wanting it all that much more.

I have no doubt that when I get home tonight, I’ll once again be back in a dress while I start cleaning. Hopefully, I can do some more pictures then too. I had the best of intentions to do that last night – plus an adventure assigned by Mistress Gina, but things just didn’t work out.

So please, stay happy everyone.

Tuesday, June 2, 2009

Living In A Bra

Well, my internet connection is finally back – mostly. While it’s usually ok, it’s also often horribly slow, and right now it’s just that – horribly slow. Half the time the pages either time-out, or I have to try to re-load them several times. I called the head-tech at my ISP yesterday (I’ve gotten to know him fairly well over the years) to find out what happened. They’re not sure, but something totally fried most of their equipment sometime Saturday. Since Saturday night, they’ve been rebuilding and replacing most of their servers and everything else. At least I have internet now though – mostly.

Anyway, I seem to be living in a bra. Yes, I did wear it to work, and while I’m not quite sure if I’m supposed to or not, I’ve also been wearing it to bed too. Why not? It’s not hurting anything. And it’s become quite comfortable (most of the time). When I go out, I always wear the one with no padding in it, and with a t-shirt and a baggy shirt over top of it, you’d never know. Now if I can just keep my hands away from those bra straps I’ll be all set. That’s my one and only real fear. The more I wear it, the more I think that adjusting those straps becomes an unconscious habit. Fortunately, my bras all seem to be getting much better about staying put lately – or is my body molding to them instead.

Mistress Gina was magnanimously kind to me yesterday. She had me edge myself at six p.m. when I got home from work (still in my nylon chastity device) to the point just short of cuming. Which I gratefully did. Since I know I always drip – well, it actually runs out of me – I collected it all into one of my baby bottles. Edging is very difficult inside of most chastity devices. I guess this one is a lot easier, but since it still doesn’t permit me to get hard at all, it still took a lot of doing. But I did it! Actually, I probably wasn’t that close to cuming when I stopped because I couldn’t get hard at all. In fact, this time the device wasn’t even letting me gain a bit of length at all. In the end, I wound up milking myself three times and I figured that was enough.

Then at eight p.m. I had instructions to finally remove the device and have a full orgasm – but I had to eat all my cum. No problem! Period! I worked myself off into my bottle again to keep it all together. It felt so good to touch it again and to get hard again and…well, you know. Um, yeah, it took quite a while again. For a while there I wasn’t sure if I’d be at it for a long time or not. But lo and behold, yes… finally!!! Wonderful relief. I wiped myself up, stuck the nipple on my bottle, and finished it all off rather quickly. Well, there really wasn’t all that much there anyway. But I’ve now had relief!!! Thank you Mistress Gina. But why am I still so horny again?

Otherwise, it was a fairly uneventful evening last night. I seem to have lots of chores to take care of lately and I got into one of them last night. I have another one that has to be done tonight that hopefully won’t take me as long.

Have a great day everyone. I sure hope I do. Oh, by the way, get well Mistress Gina!

Monday, June 1, 2009

No Internet Connection

Sometime Saturday afternoon, I lost my entire internet connection. My modem and computer are fine, there just seems to be no ISP to connect to. I kept checking every few hours, but it didn’t come back. My ISP is a local operation owned and run by the tiny town I live near. It’s a wireless connection and the operation is underfunded and kind of second rate, but it’s also the only broadband connection I can get. The city won’t put any more money into it and has talked several times about getting rid of it. I’m wondering now if something just broke in their system, or if it’s a bigger problem. So unfortunately, I’ve been unable to communicate, either way, with anybody. So sorry this is late, but I had to wait till I could get to work to post this.

Well anyway, here’s how my weekend went.

About Saturday

Well, Saturday was a busy day for me for sure. Not much girl time – in fact none, but it was interesting never the less. It was supposed to be a “little-girl” day for me, but that didn’t work out. I had too much to do. But I did adhere to some instructions from Mistress Gina.

After my breakfast I told you about yesterday, I got washed and rediapered about 8 a.m. Since I had a lot of things to do in public all day, I diapered myself in a soaker pad, cloth diaper, 1 disposable diaper, and my plastic panties. Over that I put on a pair of pantyhose and then my bra again. I wore a t-shirt over the bra and my baggiest shirt and jeans that I own. White socks and sneakers, and I was ready to face the world. Oh, before I continue, one instruction was that my diapers had to last me a full 12 hours before I could change them. I didn’t know if what I was wearing would last that long, but I wasn’t ready to do anything else yet.

Taking my dog to the vet was first. The place was a lot busier than usual, which meant that I had to sit there and wait, which also meant that people kept taking to me the entire time I was in there because they always love my dog. But I have to tell you, I didn’t think anybody would notice my bra or diapers – especially yet, but I was really conscious about the way I held my arms around my body for fear that perhaps it would give any tell-tale sign. Silly I know, but it was true. But fortunately nobody noticed anything and forty-five minutes later I was finally out of there.

I dropped the dog off at home, then went off to get the oil changed and the car washed.
Again the place was packed and it took forever. I had wet myself a couple of times already by the time I left and I was starting to get concerned about someone noticing my padded backside, but that wasn’t my biggest problem. While I was waiting, I started to reach up unconsciously to adjust my bra strap that had started slipping. I stopped myself just in time. I mean, how much of a dead give-away would that have been? I didn’t get to adjust it till I was back in the car and out on the road again – and then I tried to do it so nobody might know for sure what I was doing.

I also stopped at Home Depot on the way back to pick up a special light bulb I wanted for the kitchen. I looked and looked, but didn’t see what I wanted, so I had to ask for help from one of the women who worked there. She couldn’t find it either so she asked another woman, who also asked someone else. All of them took forever talking to me, and the entire time I was anxious to adjust my bra strap again. Now I really like that bra because the straps give me less problems and stay put better than any bra I’ve ever known. But why did it have to be a problem then?

So… finally back home again. I changed out of my loose fitting shirt into one a bit more for working and I also took my t-shirt off. It was just too hot for anything more, but the bra of course stayed on. I cut about half the lawn before I took a break for lunch around 1 p.m. Here goes… As per Mistress Gina’s instructions, I was to mix a can of peas with some soup, then turn it into baby food in the blender for my lunch. I chose a can of Chunky Beef Rib Roast soup. It smelled delicious! I put that into a pot and added a whole can of peas on top of it. Way too many peas. Then I heated it up. It looked ok, but it no longer smelled as good as it did before I added the peas. Then I put the whole mixture into the blender. Instant baby food – sort of. Can you say “Yuck?” Yeah, it sort of tasted ok, but the soup by itself would have tasted a lot better. It looked totally green from all the peas. Now I like peas and I love split pea soup. But this was nothing like that. And the best part is that I still have more than enough left over for my lunch Sunday.

Oh yeah, one other thing I forgot to mention before, everything I eat has to be eaten with a baby spoon (I’m using a pink one). Let me tell you, there’s nothing that will extend the pleasure/agony of a baby food meal than by using a baby spoon. It takes a long time to eat that way and every time I try it I wind up spilling some down my chin – just like a baby. Ok, I was in heaven again.

By now, my diapers were fairly wet, but they didn’t seem to be any problem – leaking wise, but I was beginning to notice a little bit of soreness around the top of my thighs where the soaker pad was rubbing. I must not have put enough baby lotion there because I was beginning to worry about that area getting a diaper rash. The rest of me was fine.

I finished cutting the grass, then sprayed grass killer all along the length of our amazingly long fence, then I trimmed all the bushes in the front of the house (as per my wife’s instructions) and raked up the trimmings. By the time I was done, it was getting late and I was totally exhausted. My bra felt as wet as my diapers from all my sweat. I spent a lot of time working in the front yard yesterday, but not many people seemed to be out and I just plain didn’t worry about anyone seeing my bra. My diapers still seemed to be ok too, but that chaffed area was still concerning me. My thighs were also getting tired too from all the extra pressure of the soaker against them. I really haven’t been able to put my legs together for a few days now. Very interesting.

As per Mistress Gina’s instructions, my dinner was supposed to be fast food – blended up into baby food again. I had kind of a hankering for Arby’s so I drove up there and got myself and my dog a roast beef sandwich, which would have been great, but again, the baby food problem. I broke my sandwich (bun and all) up into small pieces and put them into the blender. It took a bit of doing to get it mostly ground up and I had to add a tiny bit of water too. Then I added my fries on top of that (I should have put them in at the beginning too). I wound up having to add a lot more water to the mixture to get it to process everything properly, but when I was finally done, I had a light brown goo that looked just like the baby food meats that you buy from the jar. Yum, yum! Err, not quite. In fact, while it didn’t taste exactly disgusting, it wasn’t far off. But I did eat it with my tiny baby spoon. I will tell you that the ice tea that I had poured into my baby bottle went down very fast as I was eating.

I finally got to change my diapers and take a much needed shower at 8 p.m. I was really tired from all the work I did and wound up going to sleep early. I did everything I could Saturday to clear the decks so I could have a total baby-girl day on Sunday. It’s Sunday now, and it’s getting time for me to make my banana baby food breakfast. Oh goody!



I still have no internet connection and don’t know when it will be back.

I’ve decided that I’m going to ignore most of the chores I really need to do today and enjoy my little-girl day. I diapered myself at 8 a.m. – continuing the 12 hour changing cycle. No more change till 8 p.m. tonight. But this time I’m diapered differently. Friday night while I was at Wal-Mart, I bought myself a nice thick bath towel to use as a diaper instead of the thinner material I had been using. I washed it and used plenty of fabric softener so it’s nice and soft and comfy (for now). I cut it down to the proper size and had plenty of material left over to make two softer, thicker soakers. So now I’m wearing one of those soakers, the thick diaper, two disposable diapers over that, and then my plastic panties. I was afraid that it would be so thick that I would have trouble getting my plastic panties over it all, but it turned out to be no problem. From the start, my diapers are so thick that I can only waddle – excessively. They’re so thick that they’re making everything more difficult.

I’m also wearing a padded bra, a pair of pantyhose, my favorite blue skirt, and a blue blouse to go with it. Ok, blue may not be very girly, but I still feel girly. I also strapped my highest heels onto my feet where I plan for them to stay all day too. There’s something a bit incongruous about the high heels and little-girl, but I’m not sure what. Oh, maybe not, little-girls like to play dress up and so will I!

I made my breakfast the same as yesterday – blended up banana with some milk in it. I ate that while watching more little girl cartoons on TV. Yes, it did drip on my chin a number of times again. It’s so hard to eat with that little baby spoon. Maybe I should have gotten myself a bib. I sure feel like I need one when I eat now. Maybe I should improvise later.

After that, I listened to my hypno recording again so right now I’m nice and relaxed – all over. I’ve listened to that recording enough times now that my mind wanders too much during it. But it still helps a lot. This time I wet myself during the recording. I don’t remember doing that before. I plan to listen to it one more time just before bed.

As per Mistress Gina’s instructions, I need to stay very hydrated all day – I guess so I wet a lot. To help that along even more, I made a batch of green tea and stuck it in the refrigerator. I’ll be filling my baby bottle with it all day starting at 10 a.m. My plan is that I have to finish a full bottle of liquid every two hours. If I don’t then I have to drink and extra full bottle during the next hour. I should be sopping wet by tonight!

Oh, as soon as my recording started, I realized I had forgotten and was breaking one of Mistress Gina’s rules for me today. No sitting on any adult furniture! I’m afraid I stayed where I was till the end of the recording. But I guess it’s the floor for me for the rest of the day. I’ll spread a blanket.

More later.


I just finished watching the first of the four videos I rented – Barbie, the Twelve Dancing Princesses – I cried! I can’t believe how much I enjoyed it and how well it was done. I’m sorry I only rented two of the Barbie videos. The green tea has me peeing a lot now and I’m really starting to notice it in my diapers more and more!



Ugh! Sitting on the floor is getting to be a pain. I keep looking at the couch and my chair and I want to use them so badly. The couch would be particularly nice since I can sit or lay down on it and change positions easily. I spread a blanket on the floor, but that’s not making any difference.

I watched Hello Kitty – Pretty Kitty’s Paradise as my second video today. Very boring to me – especially after watching the Barbie one before.


I just got up from taking a one hour nap. Still no internet connection. I’m betting that either nobody at my ISP knows, or they’re not willing to pay the overtime to fix it – or both. It’s a major pain. I keep thinking of things I’d like to look up and I can’t. Since last night I’ve especially wanted to go back through Mistress Gina’s emails to see what I’ve forgotten or missed.

My diapers are starting to get really heavy now and I’ve still got over five more hours before I can change. But at least I’m peeing really easily in them. I usually notice that there’s a little pressure building up, then the next thing I notice is that the pee is already coming out of me. Oh, and the green tea seems to be doing its job quite well!


Later still…

It’s now almost 4:30 p.m. and I’ve just finished watching Barbie – The Magic of Pegasus. Another really good one. This one moved me too. I’m amazed at the quality of these Barbie videos. The story, the animation, the music – they’re all great. Most definitely made for young girls, but still the quality is amazing.

I’ve managed still to keep perfectly to my green tea schedule, and the green tea is still managing to do its job perfectly too. My diapers are now so heavy that if it wasn’t for the packing tape I wrapped around the top of the disposables when I put them on, I think they’d fall off. No danger of that at all though. I’m now glad I can’t sit on the furniture. I’d be very much afraid to. I think I’ll be wearing extra diapers to bed tonight too. No telling how long this tea is going to affect me. Oh, and if I thought I was waddling before… it’s getting hard to walk now. It’s a good thing I had decided I wanted this to be a no-pants day. I don’t think I could get a pair on.


I had been wondering all day about what I was going to have for dinner tonight. Mistress Gina had directed that last night I should get some fast food and turn that into baby food, but there was no way that I could go anywhere tonight. But I found a chicken parmesan and spaghetti TV dinner in the freezer and I put that into the micro-wave. I cooked it perfectly and it looked and smelled so good. But of course, everything I eat this weekend has to be turned into baby food, so I put it all into the blender. I had to add a little water to get the consistency to look like baby food, but eventually, that’s all I had to eat – baby food. There is something very, very humiliating about taking something fit for and adult and reducing it to a pulp only fit for a baby – and then eating it like a baby with a baby spoon. And the result is that every time I do it, I get so turned on by the humiliation. Since lunch, I’ve even started to wrap a towel around my neck like a bib first – yeah, I still need it.


Ahhhh! I’m kneeling here (because I’m not allowed to use the furniture) enjoying wearing nice clean diapers again. Yes, I’m diapered a bit heavier than usual – even for nighttime, but I think I may need it tonight because of all the tea I drank today. I still have another bottle of water to finish before I can go to bed, probably around 10 p.m.

For my final movie, I really wanted to find something like one of the My Little Pony movies, but the video store had tons of Barbie movies and very little of anything else. Now, I wish I had gotten several more of the Barbie ones. Anyway, I wound up picking up a copy of the original 101 Dalmatians. It’s a classic and I’m in the middle of watching it now.


My last movie is over, and so is my day. It’s been very interesting. When I finally removed my diapers earlier, I found out that they were so wet that the inside disposable was starting to disintegrate. I guess it had been used enough.

Tomorrow is back to work, diapered again, but this time also with a bra. Oh goody!

So, was your weekend as interesting? I hope so.