Tuesday, July 21, 2015

A Serious Decision For Me – And This Blog

 For many months now, I have been seriously considering taking a break from this blog.  There is a lot of tension and stress that I’ve boxed myself into here in order to keep posting and to keep ahead of you in the stories.  And I have many other projects that I really need to get back to working on – or other projects still waiting to be thought of and started.  Projects both for Karen and my real self. 

But this blog is my only real outlet so far for letting my Karen side exist.  And yet, as I’ve said, I’m growing tired of the stress and worry. 

So what do I do, continue writing and posting, or take a much needed break? 

After literally months of seriously considering this question, you’ll be happy to know that I’m going to continue posting – for now.  I will try to continue posting twice a week on Tuesdays and Fridays, but I will also try to not beat myself up over being so strict to maintain that schedule, or worry about posting so early in the morning (for me) – something that I know will be fairly impossible for me NOT to worry about. 

So yes, I will continue to write stories for you.  No!  Not for you, for me.  Everything I write, I write for me.  And then if I share any of it with you and you happen to like it, so much the better.  But If I tried to write for anyone other than me, I feel I would be doing you all a big disservice, and I would be doing myself an even bigger injustice.  So, I write for me, and only me.  I write what I want, and the way I want it to be.  And I’m happier with my stories that way.  The truth is, all too often, when I want something really good or interesting to read, I find myself turning to one of my stories instead of someone else’s stories.  I guess I like them more because they’re done the way I want them to be done.  They were interesting to me when I wrote them, and so they’re usually the most interesting things I can read later. 

So putting all that aside, and knowing that I will continue posting – at least for now.  That leaves the big question of what will be next.  Not just a good question, but an outstanding one.  So what will it be? 

The answer is that the next story will be something totally different again.  Just as “The Housekeeper” was vastly different than “The Bet.”  And just as “Hypnotized and Humiliated” was vastly different than “The Housekeeper.”  The next story is something vastly different again. 

Before telling you much more about it, I will tell you that while I was writing “Hypnotized and Humiliated,” I also wrote enough of this next story to fill about three complete books – so far!  And the story is a long way from being finished.  So right now I’ve probably got enough material for about a year or two worth of postings.  And the story is still growing and is a long way from the ending.  In fact, one of the problems in the story that I’m currently wrestling with, is to include another book’s worth of material inside of the story, or make that material another separate book.  I have yet to decide that issue, but I still have a long way to go before I get to the point where I must decide it.

I will also tell you this about the next story right now.  I hope I don’t get to post all of it here.  I hope I will post it for a while, and then stop posting it and pull everything I’ve posted on it off the internet – completely!  That’s because this book (although most likely I’m going to have to divide it up into several books) is something that I feel deserves to be published.  It doesn’t belong here and it doesn’t belong out on Fictionmania or any site like that for sure.  It deserves to be published and set where everyone can find it and read it.  To me, it’s that good!  That addictive! 

So don’t be surprised if someday I suddenly not only stop posting the story, but I remove everything I’ve posted on it so far. 

That’s about all I’m going to tell you in this post.  Next post I’ll tell you just a tiny bit about:

The McComber Switch


Anonymous said...

alwys follow your heart it never lies!

sarah penguin said...

Take time for yourself if you need to, you're a person, not a fiction machine. :)

Anonymous said...

Hi, I hope this finds you well.

I've read your last 3 epics and enjoyed them enormously.

Advice being the cheapest thing in the Universe, here's what I think:

I think the episodic nature of your posts rewards a certain level of repetition that I don't think would come over so well as a compilation of chapters. I must confess I did skim past a few of the shopping trips in the last one. I think Phyllis was saturated with humiliation pretty early on!

Thanks for sharing your work with all of us.